have you tried starting off with some very light excersise and building from there? Start looking after yourself, get a good haircut, change your diet, improve your sleep cycle, if you have acne, get some treatments to deal with it. If your face is fat and your posture is bad, look up youtube videos of stretches and exercises to correct your posture, if it means that much to you, there are little things you can do to advance your position, in doing them, you can build confidence that will eventually allow you to talk to people, but you have to take it step by step?
Don't try changing everything at once and don't expect results straight away but if you do these things to take care of yourself results will come and soon enough you will be amazed at how far your have come.
plenty people have been at rock bottom. And this isn't some bootstraps thing, its not easy, its hard, developing positive habits particularly if you have been beaten down in life is difficult, you will fall of the wagon and drop back into bad habits, but its quite simple anon you either go forward, get back up, try again, or you go down a path that leads only to killing yourself or something else equally as drastic. You get one life. There is no god, there is no second try. You can end it, or you can make the most of it.
Looks like you're pretty far gone, so I would suggest making some improvements to yourself, then when you feel good enough, go join leftist orgs. NOT BECAUSE YOU ARE TRYING TO GET LAID, but because you care about the left as your are here on a leftist website.
I know again, not easy, but stop thinking about getting laid, focus on improving yourself and developing some kind of path in life and just.. see what happens, anything is better than fucking chemically castrating yourself.
Do you watch porn? Stop watching porn.
Take us through your average day. What is your lifestyle like? Why do you feel you cannot improve on any of these things if you are resorting to such drastic measures as getting chemically castrated? Surely there are other options first