Anon, there was always a faction of downtrodden-socially folk who had to endure all of the world's ridicule and mockery. If you are irreparably one of them, I want you to know I will never join side with haters and moggers. I never relish at ppl being worse off than me; it just makes my heartache. Also don't take it uberpersonally.
I can give you advice to alleviate the burden though in case it's redeemable. You will definitely need to be medicated and once they give u drugs to make you chill it will become a learned behavior and u will be able to emulate it even when not on drugs.
You also need to apply halo effect. Just hang out in best places and with best clothes and around best ppl you know and you will easily give off cool-guy vibes. Right now, horns effect is playing on you. as ppl mock you and create an atmosphere of ridicule, it becomes easy to ascribe negative traits and behaviors to you. You need to get out of that social circle if you can't turn around to something more positive.