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>>22546
Why do you want to blow your head out anon?

>>22546
Or how do you feel about it?

>>22546
lmao me too

but i want someone to do it to me and without the out part

i just want someone to blow me

>>22549
bj therapy, nice

>>22551
do you feel let down by other people, and like your needs are not being met?

>>22553
I wasn't trying to patholagize you at all. I was asking you questions I thought were related to what you were trying to convey so that you had an opportunity to talk more about it

i think that anon is dead now

>>22555
rip. idk why he deleted his posts first but good luck to him

Quitting drugs is way easier than I thought it would be, then again it's only the first two weeks

>>22575
What are you quitting anon?

Oh boy time for unhinged advice that may or may not worsen your mental health.

I’ll shoot anyways. Person I liked correctly set boundaries and re-affirmed boundaries in a healthy way. I was hurt by those boundaries and realized I was toxic, in that I was mistrusting, in need of validation, was self-centered; in that I did not consider their family situation and did not believe her reason despite having zero history of lying, that I am an insanely controlling person, and very intrusive of boundaries and personal information. It’s ironic because I have a strained relationship w my father, and I always told myself that these traits were the ones that I would never repeat to others, and yet it seems in my most vulnerable, those exact traits that hurt me so much in the past were the ones I exhibited, all concentrated into this situation. A tragedy right? How the fuck can I develop new values that will counter these things?

I realize it’s too late to rectify things as they’ve already blocked me. But I also wanna rectify my feelings. Despite the “rightness” of their actions, I am feeling multiple things at once. I am hurt for them setting up boundaries, as Personal experience has lead me to believe setting boundaries was always done in a moment of hurt, and I thought I hurt the person. While I understand that(initially), I was in no way the source of hurt(until the very end), someone setting boundaries seems like abandonment. but also I feel deep regret for being inconsiderate. How do I process my emotions and also give myself new values? It seems I am wanting to develop new values to feed this fear of abandonment, and if those fears of abandonment are validated in other scenarios, I fear I may lose all of the values “developed”, and reveal my “true” self.

>>22581
basically, during my most vulnerable, I fear I lose all my supposed moral values of consent, non-coercion, anti-control, etc. It’s the nice guy trope except unintentional and (I hope) not manipulative, but even then I am doubting myself about that. How do I maintain myself during my most vulnerable?

>>22576
Weed, it's too expensive and when I do have it I smoke every day, I can hold off and say no to things like alcohol or psychs. Thank god I never picked up cocaine, benzos, or opiates.

>>22586
Weed famously causes no physiological dependence.
>>22581
>How do I process my emotions and also give myself new values?
I dont't know, by struggling?
The only emotions I know are anger and hunger (is that an emotion?).

>>22590
Physioogical depndence no, psychological dependence absolutely.

>>22581
do you have somewhere you like to go or music you like to listen to in order to reflect calmly/peacefully?

>>22595
yeah weed can be addictive and worsen certain mental health and lifestyle problems with some people and with unhealthy use