>>674333I love bees they are so delightful and cute! Especially bumble bees!
But humans are not dissimilar from bees. We are also worked to death for society. Either we die consciously sacrificing ourself for a group or die unconsciously doing so in a way considered 'natural death' (no such thing as nature). What I'm saying is that the essence of life is that pain is 24/7 and we will all die horribly (dying when you are 80 is not 'better' than dying when you are 20, you rot into meat the same either way). And this is fine. Life is beautiful and sucks and either you die pretending its fine you lived until 90 and put off thinking about it every year or you accept you are meat on legs and appreciate nature and cute animals and the world around you and LOVE YOUR FRIENDS and its all worth it. No pain no gain. Pain is fine. Also like the most important thing is boring organizational stuff, bravery is easy. Idk how anyone can be a coward when all you have to do is know you are right and you can do anything until you are shot by the enemy.
Sometimes you need a bit of narcisism if you are going to win. Or just believing in yourself. I'm a great revolutionary. I trust and love all my friends. Simple as. I choose the path of making impacts on people's lives rather than the path of being found as a rotting corpse in your house. I am taking the path of being a tragic young martyr. And I'm not just fantasizing about it, I have these connections, this is what I am doing right now.
The only issue is I have to keep my crazyness at bay. I think if you have this mindset I have you are legitimately insane. And thats good. I can go into a room of the bourgeois neolibs and say they will all be liquidated in the revolution because I only give a shit what my friends think. But some of my friends think I am schizophrenic even though they respect my bravery. I have to keep it at bay. But when I use my bravery my schizophrenia shows itself. I think the thing is that due to autism I am constantly in the 'mind alteration' zone. Like I don't need religion to feel everything I do is religious. I don't need god or idealism to think that my material actions are meaningful. That's what I mean. The world is uncaring, disgusting and fundementally painful, and that's fine because every animal is also cute, and beautiful, and I cry when my friends are hurt and when I look out of the window and see the universe bloom in a city block.
This is why I agree with the idea of 'comrade as object'. I am a warrior ant. A beautiful one but the role is still the same. I will do what I can until I am expended. That's not to say I don't seek pleasure or comfort, but in the end I am happy with doing what I can under the starts of the universe, with nobody watching, without reward, because that is meaning in itself. And I would rather live to see socialism or communism but if I don't that's fine. I have friends and I am happy, that's all I need.
But at the same time FUCK eugenics and all that assisted dying shit. I'm not advocating for that. I'm advocating for people to come to the position of becoming insects themselves of their own accord. (I love bugs they are so cute :3