>>46854chan is literally a death cult designed to make people who should be happy into mass shooters instead. Never go there, never follow their adjacent ideologies, none of it. Even this site is a little uncomfortably close to that sphere at times. Get your ass somewhere very, very far away where you can deprogram.
The reality is that 99.9% of 4chan-ass webizens have been programmed to do constant self-defeating actions and repeat self-defeating mantras, all to trick themselves into believing there's no hope, even in situations like your own where you've basically got a whole beautiful life ahead of you ready to go. It's self harm. You're also programmed to naturally want to fight back when someone like me tells you all this, but don't, it's literally just true.
Also,
>>4221like seriously