/siberia/ - Off-topic

Is there any hope for India? Everything I see from my country is genuinely so depressing. I've been doomscrolling on twitter for the past few days, and the shit that I've seen has legitimately rotted my brain. Everyone across the political spectrum is openly trashing Indians without shame, and what's crazy is I don't even blame them. You have groyper nazi accounts and white they/thems coming together to talk about how grotesque "jeets".

Of course I don't enjoy seeing racism against my people, but at the same time I feel like I can't even get mad. Indians on the internet are genuinely so cringe, it makes me wanna claw my eyes out. The mockery of dead Palestinian children, the constant rape threats, the casual racism/casteism/islamophobia, the nonstop AI slop…whenever I spend a single minute on Indian twitter, I immediately understand why the world hates us.

And then to make things worse, the obnoxious victim complex. "Hinduphobia", "hindu genocide", "islamist jihadis", I swear to god I can't fucking stand it. I'd like to think that the majority of these accounts are just bots or that Indians irl are more sensible, but I know that these are real people. And it makes me sick to my stomach.

The worst part is I live in Canada, and right now racism against Indians is pretty bad–and it's only getting worse overtime. Shit isn't just online, it's starting to bleed into real life as I've had several encounters with people who have called me slurs/insults for being Indian.

But I'm starting to feel like it's deserved. How can I, in good conscience, complain about racism against Indians when we constantly racially abuse everybody else? Hell, we abuse ourselves with garbage like the caste system.

I'm starting to think I should just off myself. And hope to god that I'm not reincarnated as an Indian. I can't stand being a part of this race. Every time I have to look into the mirror, I feel like crying. I hate myself. Even without the politics, I've hated myself for a long time. But knowing that my people are active shitbags who constantly align themselves with fascism makes the self hatred even worse. Cause now I know there's a moral duty to hate myself.

Please somebody help me.