>>680174jesus fucking christ im not christian and i said it.
you're putting way too much thought into what others think of you or not, look, focus on yourself first, if others think so lowly of you then fuck them and everything they stand for, no one, no one should feel inferior for things they were born as. if you think some girl has looked at you and said eww, ignore her, why would consider what she thinks of you in the first place
as for the gym, you are only there for yourself first, you think some girl is sexy in her yoga pants? stare who cares, stare a bit and ignore her, i do that if i see a good looking girl or a twink i admit, but i never punish myself for my own libido. i am just a human and so are you, and if you're self conscious about some worthless gymbros filming you to make fun of you, people already make fun of them for making fun of others, you go to the gym for yourself, it's not a place for elite 10/10 perfect beings only, focus on yourself and give it some pride dammit! and never ever let some smuck make you feel like a lesser human
if you made it so fat in the rant, have a pic of my dream waife