ive been sooo fukn depressed these last 6 months its crazy, even normal things i was always able to do are becoming increasingly difficult, and the worst part is, i cant even think of a solution, all i ever think about are fantasies where im kysing myself everytime things go wrong.
i mean, what else do i have in this world? everythings insanely boring, unappealing, grey, understimulating, ultimately not worth it, and i cant find a single thing to motivste me to keep going, its like i can see through all the BS, im looking at the world for what it actually is, with no ideology to pretend its some grand journey filled with meaning or whatever.
and to boot i cqnt even relate to people. idk maybe im autistic, schizophrenic, a psycho or some bullshit, but im totally decked out and dont even feel like talking to others, theres nothing they can say that i couldnt otherwise read in a book or an article online. ive even had girls take interest in me but i just didnt know what to do, what do people do with each other? i dont feel like a human being
>>695803thanks for being a quality poster albania anon
are u new here or did u only start using the flag recently?
>>695798I can think of a solution for you though, you need drugs.
https://www.erowid.org/https://psychonautwiki.org/There doesn't exist a single person whining about suicide that does classical psychadelics. All you faggots keep ignoring drugs, you don't talk about drugs, you ignore them and ridicule them, you dismiss them, then you complain about life and post vents crying about how suicidal you are. If you're one of those anti-drug vermin it would be good if you killed yourself, but if you're not and have a fucking brain then you'll immediately know why psychoactive substances can fix you without having to be convinced.
>>695806i started posting on leftypol here and there around august 2021, i recently, in the past three or so months, began using this site more frequently. all of my posts bear the flag of albania the motherland
>thanks for being a quality poster albania anonmy posts are only possible with the support of anons like you, thank you
>>695798>all i ever think about are fantasies where im kysing myself everytime things go wrong.you definitely need therapy
if you dont wanna, have you tried drugs? can be pretty fun and make talking to people easier