/lgbt/ - LGBT

datamining thread, kek

>>1
I discovered I was gay when I got an erection seeing that muscular half naked wrested dude wearing a tiger mask from a tekken game when I was 8 I think

Realized I was gay when I was 7 and just spontaneously kissed my friend at the time and it made me feel funny. Then I realized actually I was bi when I was playing football and there was a really muscular lady on the other team. Both of them were positive experiences for me and it was nice to find it through some amount of interpersonal connections, I dunno if it would be the same if it was a piece of media or something that did it for me.

>>6
I was skeptical about this new board but goddamn lmao

Realized I was bi when I started jorkin it to furry porn and encountered the gay stuff. Then I made a Grindr account at 17 and got a ton of attention which girls never gave me so that basically cemented things.

i'm straight i just have a penis fetish
i've been sexually attracted to men but never romantically

>>21
What are you implying?

>>1
Why is this board hidden from the catalogue? Why are jannies such larouchite/hazcel chuds??

I never found myself attracted to girls, while men were very titillating. Whenever I read about some historical gay couple I saw a reflection of myself in it so by the time I started looking at porn I was immediately and exclusively drawn to gay stuff, and gay romances.

My experience growing up was pretty positive, I don't think I ever suffered from any denial or repression per se and was privately happy to admit to myself I was gay, outwardly I suppose I was closeted by default until I started dating (I denied being gay/refused to engage when my parents confronted me about my search history to reassure me they 'loved me no matter what' etc. when I was like 12), except to a gay/bi friend who initiated talking about his romantic life so I came clean to him. I did go through a phase when I convinced myself i was a homoromantic asexual because despite jerking off to porn I didn't fantasise much about myself having sex and it was mostly voyueristic and imagined I maybe wouldn't be turned on by having sex, but that feeling passed as soon as I actually fell in love/did anything with a boy for the first time.
I realistically hope for the communist eschaton to be brought about so I'm looking forward towards the free association, the total liberation of humanity and the final triumph of the forces of life and love, that or indescribable ruin.

Im not gay, why would you assume that.

>>27
populating a board on the top bar and whatnot is more complicated than making a new board, devs are going to add it when they are off of work. figured we'd go ahead and set up the board now just so they don't have to take that step themselves.

It all started when I masturbated to shay's nudes in the crisis thread in 2018.

>>33
based! i hope she's ok or at least didn't have any more drug episodes.

I always knew I liked women. But sometimes I'd also get a crush on a cute boy from school or in cartoons on TV. When puberty hit I felt IRL sexual attraction exclusively towards women in middleschool, but somewhere along teenagehood I started occasionaly browsing dick pics and men with shredded abs on Tumblr and hentai and stuff. I thought I was just a porn addicted weirdo teenager (because at the time that's the kind of discourse I was immersed into), until I kissed a guy at a party when I was around 19 and I felt good about it. That's when it clicked that I'm bisexual.
I didn't think anything negative of it because I already hung out with gay guys and lesbians. I was just kind of surprised, or bummed out, that I found out so late. My friends told me they always suspected it because I always felt comfortable with male touch in a way other (straight) guys weren't (kissing on the cheeks, hugging, petting hair). But at that point I was already too much of a dude's dude. I don't present as queer in any way, I look and talk like a straight dude, except for very few mannerisms.
One thing that disappointed me though is that while everyone around me (except for my family) knew and presented themselves as accepting, after some time, some guys started cracking jokes about my sexual orientation that did hurt me. One of my (straight) friends, while drunk, started hugging me as he always does to people, and another guy blurted jokingly "be careful with that cuz he likes it!" and idk, it's not a big deal, but it kinda struck me that they don't see me like one of them.
>Did you or do you have to hide it?
My family still doesn't know about it. They can't find out until I leave the house, and preferably until I leave the city. I'm currently dating a guy though, who's transgender, so I might end up having to tell them about it. Presenting my boyfriend as cis female is out of question.

>>1
I kinda was straight up working it to transexual porn as an adolescent without fully knowing what it was , I know it technically makes me still straight but I also liked some men (to a much lesser extend) kissed a few but I'm not super enthusiastic about them, I guess I'm straight but I do have a chaser air to myself but not in a mean way just in I like them way, always have

Well, I do not think I've ever experienced or 'truly know' love.
But I think, however you categorize it, gay, straight, or whatever, one being oftenly triumphs over all and your soul desperstely yearns for them, so that person perhaps is more special than just being male/female

i'm not. i just support my lgbt comrades. death to phobes like picrel

kek I knew this thread was a psyop, but didn't know from where until now.
>>111
hello there sharty netizen

Neutral. Thought I was pretty normal actually. Started experimenting early too.
Been open about it since I turned 16.
>How do you realistically hope to see public attitudes changing in your lifetime?
I don't see it changing much in my home country. Ordinary people mostly don't care. There's no open "LGBT" movement, but I prefer it that way.

>>1
>Was it positive, negative, neutral?
Negative, its been an overwhelming detriment to my life

>Did you or do you have to hide it? If so, how?
Dating a woman I don't love.

>How do you realistically hope to see public attitudes changing in your lifetime?
Less outwardly violent maybe. But I don't see coming out as possible within my lifetime.

A memoir by Caleb T. Maupin

Chapter 4

The Maupin men were born preachers. Not the TV begging kind, and not the megachurchy kind either. No, they were old school, fire and brimstone, repent or burn, King James Bible types. For six generations, each firstborn Maupin took the pulpit by sixteen, married a pious girl by twenty, and spent the rest of his life wrestling with God, the IRS, and the Federal government.
At twelve years old. I knew I would break the chain. Not because I doubted the existence of God. But because I doubted the lies they wrapped Him in.
While the other boys in Dayton traded baseball cards and boasted about kisses behind the bleachers, I sat in the library, buried in Marx and staring at the crucifix. I was drawn not to the expression of agony on Christ’s face, but to the curve of his ribs, and the tension in his thighs.

“You’re soft,” grunted my father one day, catching me sketching instead of shooting hoops.
“You’ll turn into a faggot. A man’s gotta lead. To want.”
And I did want. Just not what I was supposed to want.
The football team locker room was a torture chamber. Youth group retreats in the woods were a minefield of forced prayers, arms slung over, and forbidden warmth. The altar call was the worst. Kneeling at the rail, in the full knowledge that if they knew what I did, they’d cast me out like a rotten sheaf of wheat.

When I was fourteen, Pastor Rick pulled me to one side. The bugs buzzed around the fluorescent lights, as he thumbed his Bible open to Leviticus 18:22.
“You’re different Caleb,” he said.
“Different is no good. Satan preys on different. You gotta cut this out before it gets in.”
I wanted to scream. Instead, I memorised the verse. Later, I learned the scholars debated the translation—it wasn’t about love, but pagan temple prostitution. But back then? What did I know? It was just a knife to my throat.
I left Ohio. I didn’t cry. But I made a promise. If I burn, it won’t be for their heaven.
I flicked my cigarette into the East River and laughed. It was ugly and raw. They wanted a shepherd. They got a heretic instead.
Veronica’s voice echoed in my mind.
Honey… even Jesus needed a Joseph… you think he ever gave a shit about fitting in?

>>1
my mom thought i was gay when i was like four but i didn't register that i was queer until i was like 9
i came out to my grandma (my mother died a few months before i realized i was queer) when i was 13 and i've been bipan since then

>>36
she's in the matrix chat if you wanna talk to her