I literally can't do this anymore.
Backstory: I started doing sex work when I was 19 back in 2010. I became an anarchist as a teenager and hung out at infoshops during my high school years. After I went off to college I began doing SW, largely because I viewed it as a way to make money that didn't involve wage slavery. Many of the other anarchist women I knew (both cis and trans) were SWers and introduced me to the whole culture. I loved every minute of it. I got to work on my own terms with no hierarchical domination by a boss. I could decide my own schedule. I could say no to clients I thought were creepy or oppressive. I wasn't paying taxes to the settler-colonialist AmeriKKKan government. To me, and many other anarchist comrades, sex work was anti-work.
During my time as a SW, I was able to finish college and pay off my student loans in no time at all. I was able to pay my rent in a city where rent prices are through the roof. I was able to contribute to paying for my friends' and comrades' rent, student loan debt, medical bills, legal bills, HRT, bike repair, ADHD medications, and many other things involving mutual aid. Between 2014-2017 I was making more money than I knew what to do with. At my "peak" I was making $2k a week. It was an incredible experience. And best of all, I felt like I was actually engaging in anarchism. I wasn't being a hypocrite when it came to my values. I was telling the capitalist system and the state to fuck off and showing that my body or my will couldn't be dominated. All of that changed when the pandemic hit. I couldn't serve clients anymore due to the lockdowns. But the biggest problem was something even worse. Around this time began the growth of OnlyFans. I saw how more and more people fully integrated into the colonial-capitalist system were starting OF accounts. So I started one too, and I started making money, but it was nowhere near what I was making as a SW previously.
And this is exactly why I'm thinking of quitting SW. OnlyFans has essentially done to SW what AirBNB has done to housing and Uber has done for public transportation. But the worst part is, OF has made SW no longer subversive. SW was originally a way for marginalized and colonized folx to break out of wage slavery and become their own boss, and also to reclaim control of their bodies from the colonial-imperialist-YT supremacist-capitalist-patriarchal cistem. Now, every single suburban white girl starts an OnlyFans the day she turns 18 in order to make a few extra bucks. In fact they're now ENCOURAGED to start one. There are even Hollywood celebrities, big-named influencers and YouTubers who have OF accounts, people who already make loads of money yet feel the need to take money away from people who are far more oppressed than them. And they now have the nerve to call themselves "sex workers" because of it. Look at all the top creators on OF and you'll notice how the vast majority of them are colonially attractive, white, cis, able-bodied and have what a eugenicist would determine as "good genes." What was once the domain of the marginalized, queer, neurodivergent, colonized and internally-colonized has now become the domain of the colonizer.
So, to put it lightly, I can't do sex work anymore. There is no point. Even if I was still making thousands of dollars a month it doesn't feel worth it anymore. Not when OnlyFans has gentrified SW and the subversive quality of it is completely gone. I feel mentally abandoned.
My problem is, I have no idea how I'm going to survive now. I literally can't get a "real" job in retail or in the food industry. I spent 15 years of my life as a SW and don't have the experience for anything else. I've never made a resume. I'm autistic so I can't look customers in the eye. I'm also ADHD so I can't handle tasks very well. My AuDHD also gives me a strong sense of justice and I often feel like I'm too moral to be working in capitalism. And on top of it, I'm chronically ill so I'm constantly low on spoons and spend about half my day in bed. I dread having to go back to live with my mother, because she's 72 years old and would force me to be her caregiver even though she knows I'm disabled myself.
Any comrades have advice for this gal?
Also this doesn't make any sense, OS may have gentrified porn but prostitution is still done mostly by women in need.
>>704279I vive 6.5/8
>>704276>What was once the domain of the marginalized, queer, neurodivergent, colonized and internally-colonized has now become the domain of the colonizer. The sex trade was always like this, babe. Who runs the brothels? Rich white men. Who are the pimps? Rich white men. Who owns the porn industry? Rich white men. Who owns the strip clubs? Rich white men.
The idea that sex work is something "empowering" to the oppressed is propaganda.
>>704402hard to believe, this is like the people saying the first cowboys and gunslingers in the 1850s were freed blacks and liberal leaning white men trying to avoid racism by going westward where laws were less harsh on them before it became a fantasy like billy the kid
and a way for womenfolk to do prostitution without restrictions or pimps was to go to the wildwest saloons too
>>704419>This sounds way too well written and overly detailed to have been faked.This is definitely hard to tell from parody.
>colonial-imperialist-YT supremacist-capitalist-patriarchal cistem.Lmao, cistem.
>>704318thats just a stay at home wife though
now assuming this isnt some elaborate bait
>>704276>I wasn't being a hypocrite when it came to my values. I was telling the capitalist system and the state to fuck off and showing that my body or my will couldn't be dominated.that sounds delusional honestly, but if your life was happy like that, go off
but I mean you basically were simply self employed, you didnt opt out of the capitalist system,, even if you did escape wageslaving. Just do something where you are self employed. Home help, childcare or shit like that are always needed and can be done off the book. We're also in an era where anyone can reasonably teach himself off the internet on many skills.
>>704530>Like if I’m working as a barista I can use my experience to find a job at somewhere better with higher wages and better conditions. wut? Lol. Maybe you can be manager of the coffee shop. Lol, who the fuck you think is going to look at your resume and see:
>Barista - 15 yearsAnd go: Ohhhh! They're so experienced!?
>>704533Strawman. I’m saying the problem with sex work is that you can’t exactly put it on your resume when it comes time for you to find work elsewhere, which OP herself admits. Nobody is saying working as a barista is a comfy job, but it doesn’t have the same issues sex work has. Plus, at least you learn skills like beverage and food preparation which could be helpful later on.
>>704532$50k is a lot of money upfront but it’s not a lot of money over time. The porn industry is mostly headquartered in Los Angeles where the cost of living is beyond expensive. One other thing many ex-porn performers talk about is how they often have a short shelf life, like they work in the industry for a few years until they’re burnt out, too sick from STIs and drug/alcohol abuse, or considered “old” and get replaced by someone else. Then, once their porn careers are over, what do they do?
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