Why do I feel hostility and the need to be contrary to almost everyone? I'm an autist myself but I hate other autistic people, they make me cringe and feel uncomfortable, I don't want anything to do with them, but when normies are hostile towards autists, I have this impulse to defend them.
I also hate racists for example, and every time I see one on Twitter I attack them, but with my friends I tend to make lots of racist memes, watch Nick Fuentes clips together etc.
>>729784this is true, but I want to fit in, I mask so hard and try to socialize with NTs because I hate autists
>>729797Do you have a diagnosis from a neurologist or did you diagnose yourself to feel special?
>>729799I was diagnosed when I was 9, and I became extremely insecure about it, if I hadn't been diagnosed probably I wouldn't be in self pity all day