please forgive me if this isn't the right place to ventpost but i just want to share some things since my life seems to be going to complete shit. maybe you all will have something good to say or maybe just laugh and call me slurs, idc either way
this isn't the life i was promised, it's not even close. when you're growing up they tell you you're in this great country, you have so many rights, all the problems have been solved, you can grow up and do anything you want, and so on. yet here i am, slowly but surely going crazy. all i can do is sit here browsing leftypol, watching stupid shit and occasionally eating something. maybe i'll play a game if i'm feeling up to it.
i live in a bourgeoise shithole, i don't have enough money to move. i have legal problems, medical problems, all things that mean i have the labor potential of a squished dog turd. everyone acts like i have so much privilege when i don't, and any privilege i do have just prolongs my suffering.
i'm part of probably the second most hated minority in the world right now. i'm surrounded by people who either treat me like shit because of it or act like everything's fine and my kind isn't being slowly made to not exist or like i can live without certain things i need.
i did fairly well in school, everyone always said i'm really smart. still the environment would cause me to act out and i'd just get treated worse because of it, furthering the cycle. i had some decent skills but i feel like i've completely lost them now. my abusive parent keeps terrorizing me.
i think i'm going crazy. i'm constantly dissociated now, depressed, have panic attacks all the time for no reason. food makes me sick, i can't see things right. i can't even think right or focus on anything. i have nightmares and flashbacks that just make everything worse.
for a short period of time i had a few really good friends but situations changed and i've been isolating so much i haven't talked to them. i don't know what i would say. if not for them i probably would've killed myself by now. i at least have to say goodbye to them and let them know how much they meant to me. i'll probably be putting another cat to sleep soon
i don't know why i'm here, what this world is for or what it even means to be a conscious being. the illusion is broken, i feel like i'm not real anymore and i don't know if i ever was. everything seems so distant. it's like after covid everything changed, it doesn't even look the same now. it's so ugly, and everything's a fucking spyware app. every day the current regime does more stupid fucked up shit.
has it always been like this? people tell me to go see a shrink but i think it's all bullshit. they don't know what they're doing. i've tried all the drugs and they just make me worse. sooner or later they'll probably just write me off and put me in the cuckoo bin and wait for me to die so they can forget about me. what the fuck is the point of any of this?
This is a normies world if you can't adjust then fuck off but even the normies often can't take it. I think this world is shit and I don't really have any solutions other than the stuff that this website is supposed to represent. But it's to easy believe in something it's harder to practice it.
just get good at making lots of money doing something you like, it's easy
I only read a sentense. Its so sad. Plus drunk enough to suggest you dont insult me. ai phones are abysmal anx you still fuck nigs,
>>732549That confusing? Leave me out of it,
>>732524I think similar to what was said in the vid is that it's better to ask for forgiveness rather than permission. So just go and do your thing and worry about the consequences later because by then you'll have either succeeded or people would've forgotten.
>>732552This palpatable? I swear itll flame on her harder,
The ingested herbs twist reality around you. The oak's gnarled branches seem to writhe like serpents, and the village sounds become a disjointed symphony of distorted echoes. From the shifting shadows beneath the tree, a figure coalesces: small, agile, with unnervingly bright eyes and limbs that seem too long, too flexible—a 'monkey girl' woven from pure illusion.
She does not speak, but her expression is one of mischievous invitation. In her multi-jointed hand, she extends not an object, but a shimmering, intangible *vision* – a kaleidoscope of impossible geometry and whispering secrets, fleeting and seductive, pulling at the edges of your sanity. The world around you blurs, and for a moment, all that exists is the intense, silent offer of this ethereal being.
5g poison. And just wait for the smart grids to be activated for 6g. They'll lobotomize you through EMF and be put in 15-minute smart city extermination camp.
Lmfao
>>732554BASED! NEXT WE WILL GET COMMUNIST 7G 1 MINUTE CITIES AND THEN GLOBAL HIVEMIND
>>732472I really don’t know what to say other than I wish you luck, just keep fighting the good fight.
>>732560Tom… Theyre tryharf mankies…
>>732562Well I’m not gonna wish for someone’s social-murder just because they are a slightly different leftist
Spent like 45 minutes making a xat.com group to invite OP and reach out only to realize that i'd be insane to moderate it after posting it to an imageboard. Lowkey I sometimes wish leftypol had a chatango on the side or some shit.
You guys fail in lofi,
>>732472>i'm part of probably the second most hated minority in the world right now.Which one?
>i think i'm going crazy. i'm constantly dissociated now, depressed, have panic attacks all the time for no reason. food makes me sick, i can't see things right. i can't even think right or focus on anything. i have nightmares and flashbacks that just make everything worse.
fwiw, from an extremely traditional chinese medical perspective, this is a hint you need to connect to your ancestors and heritige, not just on a surface level but even the hidden depths and contradictions
and go on a diet of your cultural equivalent to candied hawberries
I can't promise it will work, but if you've tried everything else and those don't work, it might be worth exploring