/siberia/ - Off-topic

>>756612
do you do it only when you have free time ? and you're perfectly capable of realizing it's all in your head at the end of the day (maybe get sad about it too ? ) then it's not schizophrenia,your brain and by extension you are just trying to make dopamine however they can in your depressive lifestyle

that seems irresponsible of your doctor

>>756614
I realize that this is not real, but I do it constantly and have no control over it.

>>756622
Same, they just told me i had the adhd and put me on speed. Said it would stop in adulthood, it has not.

>>756630
Sounds like you need more speed.

>>756630
Did it help? I just don't have stimulants in my country, and sibutramine only made me anxious.

>>756635
That's stupid, you're stupid.
>>756636
I mean, technically? It made me miserable amd honestly hardly any more functional than i already was but it calmed me down.

>>756642
Do you have the same symptoms as OP?

>>756642
>I mean, technically? It made me miserable amd honestly hardly any more functional than i already was but it calmed me down.
It is an evil calm. I remember mentioning to this guy that I used to be prescribed speed in school and he told me "oh know, they must've thought you were a potential school shooter." Lol but I actually had that happen to me once because I wanted to be an entertainment designer because I had some classes from a guy who did that professionally. So I was just doodling outlines of guns, not even shooting anything, and the teacher saw it and was like:
>I want to talk to you after class.

I think speed fucked up my social life. I used to be a class clown type before they put me on speed and then on speed I was a sullen little hater. I think it took years to get over how it fucked me up.

so what do you guys daydream about. do you pace. listen to music while you do it. snap your fingers

Oftentimes I start browsing Wikipedia search for remote islands and countries and day dreaming if I could run away there
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tristan_da_Cunha
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kerguelen_Islands

>>756622
If you really have no control over it you schizo. If you are too undisciplined or lazy to stop yourself you are just a lazy dopamine addict.

What are the contents of your fantasies tho?

Lemme guess, narcissistic themes, right?

>>756687
>leftcom
>escapist fantasies
Perfect. Reality isn't up to your standards. You deserve better. Preferably a very remote or even deserted island so that those pesky other peoples can't interfere with your perfect head anon.

Bwahaha

>>756689
> narcissistic themes
What do you mean? But, probably yes.

>>756692
You in situations that are pleasurable to your self-perception. E.g. friends loving what you just did. Being celebrated. Looking better. Wearing cool dresses. Being desirable. Lauded. Respected. Being a more optimal you.

>>756689
both statements are wrong btw

>>756683
I daydream of being a revolutionary.
Or I used to imagine myself as a girl in the company of other girls, just normal, happy everyday life.
And often I don't even daydream, I just ruminate.
>do you pace. listen to music while you do it.
Yeah…

>>756643
The daydreaming, yes. I'm not tanking brain damage cause some dipshit online thinks it's a good idea.
>>756646
I never took it for long. They'd think it stopped working and give me something else. They all did the same thing, except one even made it so i couldn't jerk off. I mean i could, but it sucked.
I was also a class clown, stayed one into my late thirties. Gotta say, for all the shortcommings i suffer sociability has never been one, which ironically i think makes me the weirdo here.

>>756696
How? Psychotics have no unconscious, that's the fucking root of the problem, a lack of repression and intrusive images, sounds, voices, fantasies go hand in hand. They literally have lesser control over their inner life than neurotics, and that's why paychotic treatment may never really end, can only hope it becomes synthomeless if they get the right ways of unloading all that baggage socially. There's no real rupture in psychotic treatment possible like with neurotics. There's not even real behavioral treatments available because those are just super-ego compulsions and they have none.