>>758782I feel like there’s really nothing else to say.
I’m delusional, which means sometimes I like to compare myself to someone like Spinoza. His life was hard. His mother died when he was six. He had to watch his father’s business decline due to the Dutch war with England, and then his father died too. He was saddled with so much debt that he had to go to the city authorities for protection, which partly triggered his expulsion from the Jewish community, along with his controversial ideas. After that he just decided to live alone, earn a modest living, and engage with his work. I suppose this is where we differ. I’m not brave enough to do this. I just isolate and let myself fall apart, too afraid to risk further rejection.
>>758789I know that LLMs don’t think, I was just remarking on the fact that we are beginning to believe that they think. It’s not much different than it was before, now that I think about it. We used to let the TV do the thinking for us.
Writing as a career is one thing. I’m just trying to get over my fear or exchanging ideas with others, I guess. It feels so much like everybody already knows more than you. I don’t even know where to go. All kinds of online social interaction just feels like shouting into a void that only occasionally breaks the silence to insult you.