Like i dont plan on killing myself (mostly because of my guitar and i dont want to make my loved ones sad) but sometimes I cut myself or grab my belt and hang myelf for a bit. Anypony else relate?
That's just injecting yourself with serotonin, same as if you were doing drugs but more painful
It's undialectical
No, you've got something wrong with you.
You don't want to die, because of your guitar?
Don't do it OP! Think about all the good video games you are going to miss out on. Have you even played any of the classics like Halo, bioshock, metal gear solid, batman arkham or maybe resident evil?
i slashed my wrists with a pair of scissors once when i was in my early 20s and really drunk and crazy and depressed one night. i wasn't really trying to kill myself, i'm not sure what compelled me to do it exactly, i just remember lying in bed at like 4 am unable to sleep even after drinking nearly quart of vodka and i suddenly just got up and grabbed a rusty old pair of scissors and hacked away at my wrists like 20 or 30 times, most of them were little nicks but a few were big long gashes and then for some reason i felt better and relaxed and i laid down and fell asleep and woke up the next day with my sheets covered in blood and glued to my wrists with dried blood and felt like an asshole. i didn't go to the hospital or get stitches or anything because i knew they'd stick me back in the looney bin if i did, so i just washed the wounds and poured rubbing alcohol on them and wrapped them in bandages and they eventually healed but left some nasty scars. they've faded over the years but they're still visible. for a little while i was self-conscious about it and wore long sleeves sometimes but eventually i realized that "normal people" are pussies about mental health so when they see a fucked up crazy person with obvious self-harm scars they don't acknowledge them or even want to think about them because they're depressed and fucked up and hate themselves too but pretending like they're not. that's probably the real reason why they involuntarily commit people for doing stuff like that, not to protect them from themselves, but to protect society from reality.