I'm so tired of it all. Everyone believing the lies. Everyone legislating our torture. Everyone celebrating our oppression. Everyone pretending they're justified. All the money, all the technology, all the grifting, all just to hurt me and the handful of my kind. I just want to give up and cry.
I know that's what they want. They want us to hate humanity so they can justify branding us as terrorists. They want to push us into a corner where the whole world is against us, and our only choice is to fight back, so they can use that retaliation to manufacture consent for our eradication. It's the exact same playbook they've been using against the people of Palestine.
But even as horrible as things are for them, at least they have people fighting for them. The powerful stomp them into dust, but there's a dim light at the end of their tunnel of thorns. Journalists risk their lives to spread awareness, citizens risk arrest for speaking out. They have real allies in this fight, a frayed thread to cling to. We have no flickering light of hope, we have only ourselves.
People might feign support in passing, but anything more than empty platitudes is asking too much. Nobody wants to make even minor sacrifices for us. Nobody wants to spread empathy or awareness for us. Everyone is all too happy to let us sink to second-class citizens. Everyone is all to happy to publicly dehumanize us without so much as flinching. Nobody knows we're 10 times more likely to be murdered. Nobody knows there's state-mandated conversion therapy and human experiments. Nobody even knows what V-coding is. When they start marching us into the ovens, will anyone even know? Will anyone even care?
How can I cope? How can I not become jaded? I don't want to hate the human race, but anything less feels like letting myself be in an abusive relationship. I'm so tired.
My genuine, from the heart, advice is that you dont need to cope with this or deny it but rather make the hatred for humanity a background part of your narrative. Humanity is shit and it would be weird not to hate it as a transwoman. But dont lwt it eat you. Do mindfulness on a large scale. Focus on the little nice things that are supposed to happen in your life or could happen within the next week or few months but no further than that. The hatred is tgere to stay and thats okay but you should go about accepting it and channeling it into firearms training (I assume you are american) and prepping in general. Make the prepping for the coming hell a hobby and not an obsession. Most vital of all, find a group of other transwomen that you can talk and meet up with regularly and talk to them about what you are feeling (therapists are dogshit you need real human friends with the same problems as you) socializing in general is necessary for which I would suggest far-leftists as they are the most likely to come to your aid if shtf. Make connesctions, you never know when you will need them. Im a cis man but i genuinely want you to thrive despite living in this bitch of a world. Stay safe,stay happy, but also stay dangerous. Good luck from a thirdoid.