/lgbt/ - LGBT

You might know me as the anon who got good results with normaldosing birth control, aggresively plucks facial hair (most of it is thin or even white now) or is a transmisandrist.

I have been on birth control for more than half a year (early 20s), which has about 10% of the amount of ethinylestradiol wikipedia says was previously used for transition with 2mg of a potent progestin. From my initial observation it produced all of the symptoms of transition: Increasing feminine fat distribution, mammary glands, breast tissue (they're A to B cup), no libido for the first month or so and no new body hair i think. Yesterday though i couldn't sleep, because i noticed a spot of baldness and some baby hairs in a blunt triangular pattern at the sides of my head. Right now i don't know if i had this pattern pre-transition and gaslit myself into thinking this was normal, or if test poisoning is still slowly advancing. Further research has also thrown up questions about the oiliness of my skin. The uncertainty is killing me.

At this point i'm actually thinking about surrendering myself to the government to get an affordable blood test. Because i'm on my parent's healthcare plan, they see every expense made at the end of the month and i would have to talk to them, but they see themselves as "tolerant", so even if they don't get it, at worst they would be extremely uncomfortable yet don't say anything about it. Current medication costs about 50 euros, if it is inadequate i would have no choice but to enter whatever therapy to endocrinologist pipeline the government offers. Anyway, today i will probably contact my mother, lead in with the hair loss thing and then reveal everything (right now she probably thinks i'm gay lol).

This is further complicated by my inability to gauge the reactions of the people around me. I think i have gotten my voice to a point where it is more or less gender neutral, my fashion is androgynous (Not. One. Hoodie though), i moisturize twice per day, i take care to remove visible hairs and my skin is often reasonably smooth for not using any foundation, yet i can't tell at all if i look like a creepy male, an obvious boy/manmoder or an extremely autistic woman. Previous facial analysis was inconclusive: It is overall roundish, the brow is only slightly elevated and my chin is normal(?), but my fucking nose takes up so much space! I don't post pictures of myself on the internet for infosec reasons, so this has been eating at me as well.

>>4
That all sounds exhausting. I'm glad that I just love cock.

>>4
Don't do the birth control shit. It is the worst way to do HRT and is legitimately damaging to your health. There are better ways. Buy estradiol enanthate (affordable if you are employed) and go to the needle exchange to get fresh needles, or make gel out of powder and hand sanitizer if you are unemployed / lumpen.

>>7
Thank you for you response.
>affordable if you are employed
More than 100 euros per month? That would seriously tank my allowance. I chose birth control because it was cheap and at normal doses the risks should be marginal (right?). My current supplier doesn't carry any other estrogen medication (i thought they did at some point), but otherwise my immediate response would have been supplementing the appropriate amount of estrogen as pills or patches. One way or the other it seems i need to do something about this.

>>8
I buy one vial for like £60 (but its through bitcoin) and it lasts 6-7 months, though I have to use higher doses than most people who might use one vial per year.

>>10
Wow, that is long. Do you/did you do any blood tests? I read the NHS does them for harm reduction, so i might consider asking a local doctor in my country.

>>11
In Britain you can't get blood tests for free, you have to pay a lot of money which I am not willing to do. I do mono and it just works so I don't really feel in need of blood tests. It's just unecessary, I know when its working, I know when its not working. But seriously injections change everything. I had like no feminisation until I changed from pills and anti-androgens to injections, then I got decent boobs. I know its awful to do (and tbh it does not get better) but it its worth it.

>>12
I will definitely look into this, but i'm hesitant on the idea of monotherapy. Most information says estrogen without progesterone or a progestin requires a far higher dosage to supress T and high estrogen, even when it naturally occurs in women, is commonly associated with health risks. Injections actually don't seem that bad of a prospect, i received a serious injury as a teenager and had to inject anti-thrombosis pens each day for months.

I'm long distance with my bf and I wish he would be more responsive over text. He assures me that there is nothing to worry about vis a vis our relationship, that he wants us to stay together and everything, and I trust him. I think he mostly just gets distracted since he has a freelance coding project he's working on and it takes up a lot of his attention. He also often apologizes for not being very responsive. I'd like to ask him to try harder to be a bit more attentive but I don't want to pressure him or make him feel like he has to talk to me out of an obligation.

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