/lgbt/ - LGBT

I mean when you're having gender euphoria you're likely not gonna have dysphoria for a good while. It subsided for me at least.
Dysphoria is pretty much what happens when you have depression while trans, so like this is a broader depression issue really.

If you feel gender dysphoria then the only way it can go away is if you transition. Maybe the reason you feel the way you do about your attraction to men is because being the woman in a straight relationship with a man triggers your dysphoria, so transitioning to a man and entering gay relationships would likely fix that

>>4441
Sometimes I get euphoria if I dress more masculine than usual or if I roleplay but that's it really.
>>4442
I forgot to mention that I went on test for a brief time period and got bad side effects. Also I have no money. I've accepted IWNBAM a while ago but it doesn't stop the thoughts that creep out at night. I've considered trying out VR to see if that would help as well, I think VR headsets are a lot cheaper now anyway.

Also I don't want to be in a m4m relationship, I'd rather be with a cis woman which is more likely if I don't alter my body any further.

>>4445
>>4440
If you're trans these thoughts are not going to go away. Repressing does not work and it just means you waste your 20s and become more and more depressed. You'll just end up transitioning later in life. Also testosterone high key will masculanise you a lot if you keep taking it. So what were the side-effects in particular? I think testosterone just kind of will give you skin problems and stuff. You might just have to live with the side effects.

As for sexuality, I think you will probably find it a lot easier to understand what you really want once you properly transition. If you are living the reality of a man you won't have to worry about the same gender dynamics in your relationships with men. I kind of get you because before I transitioned I was a gay leaning bi teen, and then now I'm not really into men at all and I'd consider myself sapphic. I was just forcing heterosexuality onto myself because I thought it was wrong for me to be attracted to women. But after I put proper effort into transitioning I realised that was all a load of rubbish. It's just like internalised transphobia. The idea of a m4m relationship will seem better when you start living as a man.

>>4445
>I'd rather be with a cis woman which is more likely if I don't alter my body any further.
Its definitley hard as hell for a man to get with a cis woman, but its gonna be even harder trying to get with one as another woman since the vast majority of girls are straight

>>4446
My 20's are almost over. The side effects I got from testosterone were that I was either too hyper or didn't have enough energy to do anything. I was treated like I was mentally retarded even among supportive people. And I said I can't afford transition. Is "just transition" the only answer anyone will provide here?

>The idea of a m4m relationship will seem better when you start living as a man.
I don't WANT a m4m relationship.

>>4448
It's easier to get with a cis woman as a cis woman than as a trans man.

>>4450
>I don't WANT a m4m relationship.
you do realize that dating a man as a man isnt any different from dating a man as a woman? m4m relationships are the same as straight relationships, they arent like the ones you see in yaoi i promise you

>>4450
Then break up with that guy and go for a woman. And sort your life out. If that doesnt work you either transition or rep for life. Good news is transitioning late as ftm is easier than as mtf so whatever

>>4452
Do you have some obsession with gay men?

>>4456
Yeah going for a woman might be what I end up doing. I figured if I do transition it won't be until I'm stable and my looks have mostly faded anyway. Might be easier to find a bisexual woman than a strict lesbian anyway.

>>4450
Yeah I'm telling you to just transition. Whining about not being a man on the internet is not going to help your situation. Transitioning will.

>>4457
>Do you have some obsession with gay men?
Yes because i am a gay man.
Also in regards to this entire thread in general, if your so dead set on not transitioning then why are you even here. Youve clearly made up your mind already

I mean honestly I was kinda hoping for more advice than "just transition." But tbf I didn't realize how dead the site was anyway. Guess I'll just have to keep looking.

JANNIES ARE GLOWIES AND ALSO SUCK MY DICK

>>4445
>Sometimes I get euphoria if I dress more masculine than usual or if I roleplay but that's it really.
Well then try to do that more

Hmm could I also become a vtuber with a voice changer and collect a harem of fans? I'm just posting this to see if I'm banned yet idk this is kinda silly

Okay I might still be a little attracted to men.

I miss Terry Davis sometimes. That's not relevant to anything here but I thought I should mention that

>>4480
In a socialist society he would have been brainwashed from his religious beliefs and conscripted into a high-ranking computer science job so that his intelligence could be used to the full capacity, also he would never have had to go homeless.

>>4483
Wasn't he clinically insane?

>>4484
Well what does that even mean? He just needed to be accomodated in a different way and have his religious spooks busted, and he could have been a very productive member of society developing new software. Clinical psychology is wrong.

>>4485
I feel similarly about Chris Chan albeit not with full brainwashing, just better support.

Anyway I don't care about being trans or not (as in having a trans brain or whatever) but the dysphoria kinda feels like torture. Maybe not t (at least not now) but I technically still have my binders somewhere. (I don't know if they still fit.)

I don't know how or why I'm still able to post.

>>4483
>brainwashed from his religious beliefs and conscripted into a high-ranking computer science job
Computers were invented to control plantation slaves, you are that very satanic glowie

>>4483
Antipsychiatry aside, schizophrenia is as real as the plague; chances are he would've gone crazy regardless.