anyone else born in the gheto finds it hard to reconsile their desire to be violent and desire to be feminine?
i'm drunk so bear with me, i was born and raised by parents who got raised in pretty fucked up backgrounds, grandpa had multiple families and dad has been threatened with guns multiple times, they managed to stay off the streets because they're just fucking excellent at all they do.
dad was the best student maybe ever, and still got his score lowered by teachers who hated him but just couldn't deny him at least a near perfect grade.
mom was a bit harder, i can't think of something that didn't happen to her, she has brothers she doesn't even know, grandpa was an asshole when young, she and her brothers lived in a house they were occupying under shaky legal grounds up to this day.
and i've had a few things, they tried to keep me off the street, quite literally i wasn't allowed outside til i was like 7
and since then a lot of shit happened
up to the point where i'm bordering on lumpen and i can't fucking deal with knowing i was meant to be a criminal, i picked up the habits and i was good at surviving but i didn't want to worry my parents.
and now i'm just here still letting them down, couldn't even join the military because i'm a transhumanist
i guess this is motly a trans issue but what have you sacrificed for being yourself?
i feel so at the edge and at the same time right at the center of the hurricane
>their desire to be violent
Male socialization
>>4595not so much a desire but a reflex tbh
i was gonna say "desire to be strong" but it's more of a reflex, not so much a desire since what i really wanted was to be able to defend myself.
I have gender dysphoria - i go through HRT. It’s not about your character
>>4599can't afford that shit here yet
>hard to reconsile their desire to be violent and desire to be feminine?There is nothing inherently contradictory about femininity and violence.
>>4595Cis women get spooked into "nonviolence" too despite not being "socialized as men"
You can project strength without acting wantonly violent. Remaining entirely calm and confident while being challenged, like in that yes chad meme, is one of the most female-coded expressions of powers there is. If you are actually prepared to engage in violence or retaliate is ultimately only tangential to both.