>>5656I dunno. I was never initiated into "masculinity" (too faggy to pass the hazing rituals), and all my attempts to enter it afterwards failed.
I'm past my 20s now and I can't really bother to pretend to be a man any more, it's too late to "enter manhood". All my peers are married with kids, they like to talk about the ball game and their bitch wives and the latest cinema slop.
I always found more common ground with women or old people because there's no element of masculine competition to worry about.
I'm probably mostly heterosexual (attracted to femininity regardless of sex), but at the same time I don't want to use my male or straight privilege to possess someone as property, which is tantamount to blackmail and extortion.
I just have no place in "normal" society, and I have no place in LGBT circles as long as I keep presenting as a man and holding on to my male social cachet (rightfully so).