Hello everyone, I'm 31, male, I have loved trap aesthetics for many years, crossdressing, femboys, etc. I like transgirls a lot too. I guess you could call me a chaser if you really wanted to though I never really saw why it makes me a bad person.
Anyways, I like to keep my hair longish, I have done since I was a kid, I don't take care of it or make it look nice though. When I was a kid people used to think I was a girl. I got picked on in school a lot in general. Anyways, I realised a few years ago I was starting to have hair loss and I honestly felt kinda suicidal over it, I started taking medication that seems to have stopped it and I wanna get a hair transplant someday to go back to full coverage.
It's not like I hate being male. I don't hate my own body (at least not for being male) though I don't wanna be masculine. I feel gross when I have stubble but I'm too lazy to shave every day. I would like to get laser removal some day. I guess I will try to be a somewhat effeminate male, but I'm lazy so I don't make any effort to look nice. But I always thought that to be a transgirl would be cuter. They're just so pretty. I want to be pretty too. If I could just press a button and become an 8/10 mostly passing tgirl I'm pretty sure I would do it. But I don't want to go through the pain and suffering of actually transitioning especially when I don't even know if I really am trans or not. Maybe I should just crossdress? I like having a cock too, I wouldn't want to get rid of it, does that make me less trans? Am I just AGP? And if so, does that mean I shouldn't transition? Would it be shameful to be a girl just because it made my cock hard?
How could I make a fuss and make everyone call me a girl just because it's my fetish? Even if nobody else knew wouldn't it be so embarrassing? Aren't I too old for such nonsense anyway? I would rather be a mediocre male than an ugly tgirl that gets hate crimed.
What do you guys think? I've been feeling this way for a fair few years, like at least 4-5 probably, maybe more. Should I transition or is it too late for me? Or am I not even trans in the first place?
I mean you could try, it's not like you're interested in surgery so you dont really have dysphoria around having a cock. But just be warned, transitioning will make your life harder around normies, especially if you start presenting as stereotypically female, so having a support system will help immensely but isn't strictly necessary.
>>8825But how can I just try? Idk, like, I come out as a girl and then later I can just decide I'm not one after all? That sounds like the most mortifying thing ever.
https://turn-me-into-a-girl.com/I just pressed this button so apparently I'm a girl now, fuck. I mean I just wanted to see what it would actually say, but, cute site idea.
I'm sure my family and friends would accept me, but, it just seems scary, I don't know. Embarrassing. Like telling them all that I'm a freaky pervert.
I read another website saying that I can be transgirl without doing anything. But that seems so weird. Like I'm a guy socially and whatever but I secretly decide I'm not one?
>>8826No, it doesn't invalidate being a girl, just wearing female or male clothes doesn't invalidate your gender, neither taking hormones or not, but being unambiguous about it is another question, but if you really want to manifest the social aspect of your gender identity and in turn navigate the complexities of it then I think it will give you more confidence to be truly yourself, but it will take alot of courage but on the positive side it'll filter out alot of chuds and fake people from your life.
>>8827Maybe I will just try to start being a bit cuter.
The other issue is my BF said that he couldn't be in a relationship with me if I was a transgirl because he's a gay man and he's attracted to men. Which would suck. But sometimes I worry we're incompatible anyways, our sex life is pretty infrequent, I'm too effeminate for him and he's too masculine for me. But I love him and we've made a life together, I don't know what I would do without him.
>>8828That's a tough situation, I can't really help you with that, but perhaps your bf ain't as gay as he thought, but it really depends what he finds attractive about you or men in general or is it really only about the label?
Repression makes you mentally retarded
>>8826if you dont want hrt dont even bother calling urself trans like what's even the point
>>8833yah it really does
>>8835didn't say I didn't want HRT, if I was gonna transition of course I would, just not dick surgery
>>8824> I'm 31it's over bro it's not happening
>>8841 No I mean is the picture implying that bone structure for example around shoulders change for transwomen taking HRT
after puberty?
Or have they had "feminization" procedures in regards to that?
People need to stop trying to fit "traditional [cis binary gender]".
It needs to be critiqued as the spook it is, both for cis people and trans.
It is utterly reactionary and upholds class society.
>>8844I don't really understand what your point is, I'm aware a woman can be XYZ, a man can be XYZ, and so on.
>>8846Traditional womanhood and traditional man are spook archetypes going back to the beginning of class society and are key tools upholding patriarchal property transference. Today it is additionally used as the nuclear family -> petty bourgoeis -> suburban -> American Dream nucleus too.
The content of cisbinary gender is of low quality and reactionary by necessity.
Non-binary deviation outside of the behavioral straitjacket of the cisbinary is necessitated by our historical mission and movement towards communism.
>>8847What does that have to do with my topic? Or are you just making a point in general?
>>8848To be fair I would like to have the convo in the queer theory thread which I have been bumping for days expecting engagement on another leftypol board allergic to theory.
My apologies. Polite sage.
>>8851You seem confused.
The image assumes someone who were AMAB.
The top example then is missing quite a few steps, including doctors chainsawing their bones to look more "Womanly(TM)". Big omission for you not to appear mentally retarded.
The second example does in fact not try to adhere to the expressive norms of traditional womanhood, the meme and your understanding here is simply erroneous. They are instead
mixing masculine and feminine expressions, not trying to fit some idealist, bullshit archetype.
They are not trying to be a "Woman(TM)", but perhaps a bit more feminine. Having some stubble won't interfere with that. Ask any gay guy. Clear?
>>8867idk man. obviously you can do whatever you want with your body but not having facial hair is one of the easiest/most effective ways to appear feminine. sure there's gay men with stubble, even twinks, but that's not the same as being a transwoman and even among gay men, if you're a fem sub you're less likely to have facial hair (other than maybe a gay little pedostache which seems to be in vogue at the moment)
>>8870I mean there's a lot here still. Wanna talk about how the OP outlines how a 31 year old wants to be a "girl", not a "woman"? How every time women gets brought up on this site it's within an explicitly pornographic context, as a sex object to be consumed or made into?
>>8879>Wanna talk about how the OP outlines how a 31 year old wants to be a "girl", not a "woman"?Because girls are cuter. If anything I'm sexualising them instead of women.
>>8898Pedos welcome here?
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