/lgbt/ - LGBT

We don't even need this thread or motivation messages for brainwashing, i have a plan! Just give me some GULAG subjects, prominent technicians and scientists, and a huge underground research complex to conduct the experiments.

We should develop mechanic micro-devices, which upon installation in the human brain shall manipulate electro-chemical current cycle of the brain (which can do permanent rewiring), all pleasure should be directed towards serving the party, and all pain and disgust towards the old reactionary world.

Then, we would have ensured that the revolutionary ethos and conscinousness in our society remains forevermore, some 'rehabilitated' GULAG subjects will be soldiers , some others will be parents of many orphans, loving teachers, librarians and so on!!1
And their rewired brains will only have nothing but pleasure in following party's orders. Slava Rodinuu!

>>887
Unecessary, part of the revolutionary struggle is internal and always will be.

>>886
Finally a thread I can get behind of

…I am not sharing my worms first though

But I will help to the best of my abilities. Do you have relevant books/resources?

Extremely based thread. Here's my brainworms: I'm a 27 yo late transitioner (started this very year) so I think it's over. I have a huge Adam apple and my shoulders are huge (havent measured but I bet I would have a huge reach advantage in combat sports just because of wingspan)
My nose is huge and my brow ridge is neanderthal tier. I'm also on a low dose because I have a somewhat fragile body and I'm very susceptible to the side effects of just about every single thing.
Your move now. BRAINWASH ME INTO LOVING MYSELF.

>>892
Firstly, get on a higher dose. Low dose E is a psyop by the medical industry, it is actively harming you. Estrogen is not going to give you really bad side effects on its own apart from the effects you are taking it for. What can be bad for you are anti-androgens, which is part of the reason I recommend doing monotherapy injections. It will also give you a much healthier E level and you can't really low dose it. Needles suck but it changed my life.

From your description of yourself you sound like a lot of people I know who range from passing to looking like an extremely fem twink (which is not the end of the world). 27 is a fine age tbh, I mean contrapoints was later and she looks good. Do you have a good support group IRL? When you have pretty people telling you you're pretty I think the brainworms will go away on their own.

Brow ridge and big nose are not really killer problems for the face, tbh nose is really overrated in uglyness factor and I wouldn't be ashamed of it. A bigger nose can actually help with other parts of the face because it distracts from them whilst not being a really masculine feature. Huge shoulders can be dealt with by clothing, or tbh you can just live with them. I have broad shoulders and I wear shoulderless / sleeveless clothing fine. I would experiment with sleeveless tops and see if it works on you. Adams apple does suck, it's kind of like bulge, you just have to live with it if you can't get surgery unfortunately. But that is one part of your body.

In general when it comes to transitioning, you can't worry about every part of your body. Passing (and I don't think passing is the be all and end all, looking good or sexy probably matters more. You can pass by looking like a grandma after all, but I'd rather be attractive and not pass perfectly) is more a sum of many things rather than one thing you do really well. So if you have a feature about yourself that you hate then it's probably fine if you can pull everything else off. I know you've got this!

I don't know if its an issue for you, but if you ever worry about falling into the 'ugly old trans' stereotype, then don't. The people you will see who actually do look like this are not doing so because they are coping, they look good in their own beauty standards. The kind of drag, extreme makeup and no effort into 'passing' is representitive of a completely different class culture of transfems coming from the lumpen-proletariat, whilst the imageboard /tttt/ culture you are coming from (idk if you came from there but it is a wider thing than just that website) values very different things and was born from a largely high paying worker / petit-bourgeois class background. You're not going to look like them no matter what, because you're not socialized to want to look like that.

It is important to point out that the flaws of the /tttt/ culture do in fact come from its petit-bourgeois background. That's why there is so much hyperfocusing on specific points of cranial features, and basically the bullying. It's vapid and representitive of a bourgeois view of beauty, which is only achievable through expensive surgery and which 99% of even cis people will never achieve.

>>891
Sorry I don't have anything, what kind of resources are you looking for?

Okay, here are mine: Under capitalism due to its nature of constricting the variety of natural human gender expression and identities to the ready-made mold of the cis gender binary, us trans people will always be treated as beneath cis people regardless of how much they claim to respect us or see us as equal, no matter what a cis partner will always see you as lesser compared to the available pool of other cis potential partners and that opens the door for them to cheat, abuse, manipulate and generally degrade us. Only once capitalism has been totally dismantled and there is no binary gender ideal to live up to anymore will we be on truly equal ground with cis people.

>>1077
>no matter what a cis partner will always see you as lesser compared to the available pool of other cis potential partners and that opens the door for them to cheat, abuse, manipulate and generally degrade us

proofs???

>>1078
no proofs, just vibes. however what i said about trans people being inherently unequal under capitalism still holds true regardless.

>>1075
>What can be bad for you are anti-androgens
It's common knowledge that testosterone and progesterone protect against stress, yet it seems as you say, progestins including bioidentical progesterone (to a lesser degree) are associated with higher breast cancer rates (beyond just the increase in tissue) and other health risk like brain tumors.
>Estrogen is not going to give you really bad side
Presumably high estrogen will leave you more susceptible to stress. Ray Peat alleges the progesterone/estrogen balance to be central to metabolism, yet the studies he references discuss aromatase and tissue-bound estrogen in mice, in fact free estrogen has consistently been found to increase human metabolic activity. This is in line with explanations for the formation of aromatase and fat tissue in menopause to counteract falling levels of estrogen, without contradicting the beneficial effects of post-menopausal hrt.

Personally i would judge hrt to pose some risk compared to youthful cisgender physiology, but nothing you can't counteract with general health advice like diet, exercise and avoiding stress. S, if you remember any significant changes in mood, apetite and general health after starting monotherapy, i would very much like to hear about your experience.

Relevant papers: https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC10577612/ https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC2663529/ https://raypeat.com/articles/articles/tissue-bound-estrogen.shtml https://link.springer.com/chapter/10.1007/0-387-23761-5_11 https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC3964739/

>>1077
Hm, I don't think this is the right way of thinking about this. It's true capitalism will commodify anything, including relationships, but idk how much that has actually suceeded. That hasn't been my experience, though I don't use dating apps (which is the most transparent place it has been made a market). You might be reproducing capitalist ideology yourself unintentionally by saying cis people will always see you as lesser. That is the logic of the market, but human beings are not rational actors in a market, not every cis person is bourgeois.

We're workers, the exploited class, first and foremost, and we have everything in common. We can't put a rod between us, even if we criticise sections for not treating us as they should. It's just like saying nations won't get along until nations are abolished. I do get what you're trying to say and I agree this stuff will probably never be fixed under capitalism and will need to be done by socialism, and of course cis people are in positions of privelege, but I don't think we're at odds with each other either, it is not an unreconcilable contradiction. I'd love to hear more of your thoughts on this though!

>>1084
My health is great, I do lots of exercise and martial arts so I guess thats to be expected. My apetite has always been massive, I'm vegan so I just kind of eat how much I want and I stay slim. Idk I'm worried I might be gaining weight which would make sense because of oestrogen, but when I weighed myself I'm only a little bit heavier than I was last time I tried as a teenager and its healthy. Mood has improved massively but I think thats mainly other reasons and isn't to do with hormones. I got into a much happier social situation and I guess I grew up. Generally I'm really energetic and positive, though I do struggle sleeping sometimes, and I wake up very early in the night at times with no way for me to go back to sleep. As for the feminising effects I am very happy with them. I wasn't getting anything on oral + bicalumatide, and in fact I think it was making my hormones dangerously low. I hope that helped!

>>1094
Thank you! A lot of this is also heavily dependent on personal lifestyle and genetic factors, but your perspective on the matter currently makes the most sense to me.

>>1075
>what kind of resources?
Idk… like, I wanted to say basically what you said but
the first part would have come across as transphobic and the second as dismissive. Plus I am not an expert in left political philosophy so I don't know how connect it whith that.

What are you doing here (as I see) is kind of social-work psychological-help so something about that? And more specifically in relation to transgender care?
I just don't want to do more harm then help. Maybe it's just my anxiety.

I will look for it tomorrow and post it here, is it ok? Would be cool to have a list of resources at the head in the future, no?

>>892
Yeah, what S in the >>1075 said

I said in siberia that this site doesn't need an /lgbt/ board but I had a feeling that the mods would, in the end, make this ill-advised decision. As a member of the working-class some may call queer, I am dissapointed by this thread, this board, and yet again this website. This is not an expression of nihilism. It is the negative identity, the lumpenproletarization, imposed on us by the ruling class that is nihilistic. Why would I aim to define myself on their terms? Do not forget the dialectical part of dialectical materialism which urges us to move beyond LGBT and leave the rainbow ghetto behind. All I see is here is the expressed desire to do the opposite.

>>1099
well, as long as leftypol has the opposite views of the sharty then having a /lgbt/ board is worth it in my opinion.
>It is the negative identity, the lumpenproletarization, imposed on us by the ruling class.
>Why would I aim to define myself on their terms?
is the rulling class in the thread with us right now?