Ive been on hrt for about 3.8 years now and I cannot for the life of me feel comfortable telling others that im trans. Im surrounded by supportive people (who know im on hrt) but I still feel so fucking ashamed anytime I try to call myself a woman. I guess I know deep down that Im a trans girl, and I hate hate hate being perceived as a boy, it just feels so forbidden to call myself trans. I keep trying to convince myself im just a cis man with some weird disorder . Im just hoping that this will change once/if I start passing. I boymode 24/7. I feel like my quality of life would be so much better if I just told the people I talk with that im a trans women, but i just CANT. And yeah i know im probally pretty retarded
>>8965Even non trans people generally don't go around proclaiming their gender, I guess you could call it a survival mechanism, like you really don't gain anything from telling people you don't really know, if anything you'll just become a target or mentally profiled.
yeah, im not looking to stop boymoding anytime soon or like "announcing" it to everyone I meet, i guess i just wish I had an easier time accepting myself as trans. Its still so embarrassing to me