While being a stupid bi moid, I've always been drawn to a very androgynous look because of a certain aversion to masculinity and many things associated with it - I'm very proud of my long hair, and I know that if I ever get a receding hairline, It'll be either Turkey or the rope due to body dysmorphia. One of the best experiences of my life was being accidentally misgendered and hit on by a drunk alt lesbian. The whole general male pickup culture, its toxicity, and the way it objectifies the other person really disgusted me - not to mention that most of the foids, and people in general, seemed like goycattle not worth paying attention to and devoid of any interests.
About a year ago, I met a older than me twink at a philosophy group at uni. He also had an andro appearance, we shared a similarly complex view of gender, he was also bi and a bottom (it wasn't hard to figure out) - he studied something related to HR, and I started to appreciate his genuine, even a little naive, woke stance, especially compared to the cynicism that had built up in me. As time went on, I started to like him more and more and wanted to spend as much time with him as possible; I even waited in places where I knew he would be passing by, hoping to bump into him *by chance*. At some point, I realized that I was romantically attracted to him.
This is a post in style of "i am a sad lonely faggot, here's some embarrassing information about me, please dont bully me with it", but honestly, I've never had any experience with picking up or flirting. So I feel pathetic because I can't even convey to him that I like him. I've known him for a year - we even ride the same train home from our philosophy group - but I don't know how to subtly let him know how much I want to fuck him and give him a blowjob. I know my problem is just me being a pathetic loser, but how the fuck do I pick up a theymab woke twink?