So, i realized i want to be a mom a while ago, which had me crying a lot for days til i spoke to a therapist, and my endocrinologist.
And so i had to temporarily stop HRT and i feel like i'm dying, currently in a state of induced menopause for a couple of months more and my god, the cold sweats, my throat closes because of the anxiety, depersonalization and disociation makes it hard to do anything besides bedrotting and playing fast paced shooters that let me keep my brain in a constant state of focus in such tasks
and i swear to god, the only thing keeping me from letting me fall apart right now, since my mother decided to stop talking to me because i refused to boymode for her, it's my boyfriend and our future together raising our children in Spain and having them visit their grandparents in México- which hopefully won't go to hell because my brother's gen decide to elect a right winger as president of México to fuck everything up and sell everything to Israel and the US.
Kill yourself