So, i realized i want to be a mom a while ago, which had me crying a lot for days til i spoke to a therapist, and my endocrinologist.
And so i had to temporarily stop HRT and i feel like i'm dying, currently in a state of induced menopause for a couple of months more and my god, the cold sweats, my throat closes because of the anxiety, depersonalization and disociation makes it hard to do anything besides bedrotting and playing fast paced shooters that let me keep my brain in a constant state of focus in such tasks
and i swear to god, the only thing keeping me from letting me fall apart right now, since my mother decided to stop talking to me because i refused to boymode for her, it's my boyfriend and our future together raising our children in Spain and having them visit their grandparents in México- which hopefully won't go to hell because my brother's gen decide to elect a right winger as president of México to fuck everything up and sell everything to Israel and the US.
Kill yourself
>>9486>And so i had to temporarily stop HRT and i feel like i'm dying, currently in a state of induced menopause for a couple of months moreWhaaaat, how does a transgender body experience manopause?
>>94932 months-ish
i already was already reducing the dose for a while, just so i wouldn't stop cold turkey, but now i have to stay off it entirely for 2 months til i can give the sample
Why are you going of oestrogen that is the worst possible thing you could be doing,
>>9502need to regain fertility to freeze sperm then as soon as i do i get back on it.
sorry you're going through that, i like your cute meme girls
are you trying to do fun stuff to be distracted?
>>9504i was trying to play more single-player games but it wasn't as engaging so atm i'm kinda trying to play competitve games so i can get myself really focused.
that and chatting up with my bf til he gets back to work until we can be together hopefully by the start of 2027
>>9505okay then, well whatever works for you, if you like story based games then esoteric ebb is good
>>9506i think i mostly like moddable games but like, i ran out of those or i'm waiting for big mods like Skyblivion.
are you MtF or FtM
I know im a cis moid and that our struggles are barely comparable but i do know what all of the symptoms you described feel like considering i have OCD ADHD and an Depression go the point of literal disability but the thing i realized in my 23 years of being a chud is that no matter how bad it got at any point or how much i yhought theres no going back, every single time i bounced back from it to the poing of bejng nearly happy with my life. Then id sink into the pits of hell again at some point, then bounce back again. The brain, no matter how broken always has a way of auto-balancing itself and trying to stabilize. The brain is always an optjmist and it will always dig out the things that are worth being happy about, grab them and pull itself back to the surface.
On a more material note, you should try to change your outlook on adoption. Thats an even more beautiful thing than giving birth because you will forever be, in the eyes of an abandoned kid, the difference between love and rejection. You dont have to birth a child to be a woman. Most women are only able to do that for a short time in their life and so many are born infertile. Literally whats the difference between you and them?
Sorry if im being insufferable, you can freely call me retard if you want to.
You should try a bit of hoi4 as the ussr and fund commie uprisings around the world. Its what i often do when my brain starts throwing a tantrum
>>9522i am open to adoption but i really wanna get children through FIV first
i suck at hoi4 tho so i only play OWB over and over doing the same thing lol
>>9505Do you have any cute meme boys?
>>9522>chudCan you define what you mean by this?
>>9505Off topic but I like Marina she cute
>>9563she literally me
(beautiful lady😍🥰ed out then went back to her old home which is now full of ghouls and goblins)
>>9564Don't fool yourself. IRL you look like a happy merchant without a beard.
>>9557Being a failure. Im not a rightoid by a long shot.
>>9486i feel like puking all morning lol
as i if i had a knot on my stomach and breakfast just got stuck on its way
>>9673How are things in tacoland? Is trump going to do the 2-week special decartelization operation he's been talking about?
>>9570Maybe we should using those kind of words to refer to Rightoids specifically then. Because whether you like it or not, the average rightoid isn’t always some unhygienic post pubescent baby with emotional dysfunction.
Those chuddy ones you run into online or in meatspace are a loud minority
>>9486>>9492leaving your body with low amounts of both hormones at once is the absolute worst for your health, if you want to shoot one last load why not hop back on T?
>>9486>which hopefully won't go to hell because my brother's gen decide to elect a right winger as president of México to fuck everything up and sell everything to Israel and the US.It wasn’t just your brothers Gen. Those right wing candidates have mass appeal
>>9683iunno i am on a trip atm, it's hot asf
>>9701just got a T shot yesterday, cried myself to sleep and almost fainted because of how grossed out i was
>>9486What's with all the 🚂🦵 suddenly expressing the desire to become parents, I thought cis women getting pregnant gives dysphoria and also the world is fucked anyway so why pop out any children at all?
>because my brother's gen decide to elect a right winger as president of MéxicoBut the current prez is a self-described communist?
>>9927They are just trying to live a normal life for once. I can't throw flak at someone who just wants to be a normal human.
>>9927i guess anti-natalist sentiment in LGBT circles is dying, iunno, i still see a lot of trans ppl under an extremely infantilized light that makes them not want to be parents.
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