How are you spending this Friday? Do you have any plans for the weekend?
>>577080Electronic rock/hardcore I think. Not very into the genre, hence why I want go, new experience, nee opportunity to maybe meet people (fully aware most likely wont talk to anyone).
>>577081And what do you do there alone different then with people?
Anyway, I failed in getting proper sleep, so I can barely function in social situations when at full power, if I havent already bought the tickets I would just stay at home.
>>577353I did. Lots of moshing, clothes completely sweathed through, hopefully I wont get sick by the time I get home. Its the same every time, I go somewhere I have fun, and then the music stops, and Im back where I started, sad, lonely, self-conscious.
Attendee demographics were similar to what they always are, mostly small groups of men, followed by couples and occasional lone men, few non-visibly-taken women. Younger than me. Women there were so much my type, alt/goth/metal chicks, dark eyliner, chokers, sexy clothing, you know the type. Looking at them I feel like a stray dog out in the street, hoping someone would adopt me, and then I realize, no, people like dogs, stray gets pitty. I already wrote about this in the previous thread, Im not a dog but an insect. Ocassionaly someone might find me interesting enough to come poke me with a stick, but then they seem me move and buzz and get creeped out.
Caught a reflection on the way out, wet strands of hair falling on my face, and though to myself, "I look so hot, if I wasnt an impoverished autistic retard I would be swimming in pussy." What a waste. Only makes me anxious about my hairline, I want to get on finasteride, why isnt the thing over the counter, I have to spend 100€ at hair clinic just to get prescription, fucking hassle, and then roughly 50€ every month for actual medicine, which in my current financial situation is a significant expense.
The reason I cant sleep properly is that there is never anything to look forward to in the next day, just more work, more responsibilities, more time wasted and opportunities squandered.
>>577594Yeah, thats what "poke with a stick" was referring to.
>>579275To what?
Anyway, done absolutely nothing in two weeks, and have nothing to do this one either. Searching for some video games to kill time with. I have some responsibilities to addend to, but cant bring myself to. Its really hard to delay gratification when there is no gratification in sight.
>>581700Learning Excel and SQL, to help me with job search.
Oh, and I found one thing to do this weekend, local restaurant is serving vegan goose, and then Ill go to cinema to watch Substance. Fuck, wasted entire today downloading, installing and uninstalling various games because nothing strikes my fancy.
i'll spend hours searching for a game to play during the weekend, and then instead of playing it I'll doomscroll and just be miserable and a slave to the dopamine cycle
>>581801i also want to know what a vegan goose is very cool
>>581806>>581802Well the vegan goose remains mystery, I went to the restaurant in the afternoon, it was packed, they had line for the orders reaching almost outside, so I turned around and went home. Second time I decided to visit in the evening, still packed, and the goose already ran out. Went to asian bistro instead, had at best mediocre food with too much carbs, ruining todays cut, I would be better off not eating at all.
Also something broke in my internet browser (Waterfox), just stopped working out of nowhere, and I have no idea how to export out my bookmarks now, there is bunch of sites and facebook pages through which I look for local events there,so thats either gone or Ill have to figure out how to import them, one way or another its a fucking hassle, as if I had nothing better to do. What a miserable day, cant have one nice thing.
>>582024Thanks, I found that file, but I suspect it might have been overridden by empty file of new version of Waterfox I downloaded.
Currently on my way back from The Substance screening. It was ok. I really liked the first half, with more dramatic serious tone, dealing with aging and beauty and social pressure upon women, before it turns into Cronenberg movie, and then past that into a body horror farce. The screening room was almost empty, kind of surprising as the other cinema that was screening it today was fully booked. Unusual gender composition this time, mostly women. One lone old woman too, wonder how she felt watching this.
i just broke a tooth in half right now while eating popcorn, this is the fucking
WORST WEEKENDi don't want to go to the dentist during the weekend, i don't want tooooooo :C
>>582019 very cool
>>587754This is why I always disagree with boomer advice about "step outside your comfort zone" or "you never know until you try".
Unless you're going for a secure needed airtight profession or enterprise, there's no reason to "cast your breads across the waters."
i will
MURDER every single dentist in the world.
EVERY SINGLE ONE of these sadistic
DEMONSmotherfucker told me the ultrasound cleaning wouldn't hurt, but it was
LITERALLY one of the most painful things i have
EVER experienced. i almost
DIEDwe must
RETVRN to when we just pulled teeth out when something ain't right
>>588941 true
>>588986 rare 'wawa
Hey guy, I am announcing I am now merely a semi virgin. Roommates girlfriend decided to have drunken sex with me while he was away. The thing was 100% initiated and escalated by her, despite my numerous inquiries if she is ok with this and wishes to continue. There was no PIV and nobody orgasmed, she communicated that she wants to stop at some point, I really hope it was because she was too drunk or regretful and not because I am awful at this.
The slightly depressing part is I felt no passion, no lust I feel I should. I didnt get hard, I kissed and bit and licked generously, but that was pretty much just because that was the role I know I am supposed to play. Again, I really fucking hope the cause is just lack of chemistry or something, and not because I am actual bugman whose neural system never developed enough to experience such affects.
Also she invited me for a threesome with her boyfriend, on this one my hope is that it was just a drunken idea, and our encounter was cheating, I would prefer it to being involved into some poly cuckold thing.
>>589308>Cry like a bitch from a bit of scaling>But long for the good ol days where teeth were pulled for a yes or a no without anesthesiaYou're one of thoses faggots uh?
Good luck to frag me tho…
>>591582Its not just ED (I dont think I have ED, I can get hard, I just didnt in this particular situation), its everything. I expected sloppy french kissing to send electricity down my spine, feminine smell of skin, intoxicating taste of pussy, the kind of thing I read about in smutty fanfictions. She had no smell, barely any taste, now that I think about it, I didnt loose a single article of clothing, she didnt even pull my shirt off, I kind of feel insulted by that.
>>591590imagine being subjected to medieval torture in your mouth and
pay for it.
Someone broke into my car today and messed it up. I'm literally a reactionary now
>>591793Aw man. Better luck next time
>>591873>>591847Now you know why I don't respect glorifying or defense of lumpenproletariat.
It's one thing to be poor and homeless and jobless.
That's just an unfortunate fate.
But to be a thief, especially towards fellow proles?
That's unacceptable.
>>592551I finally got an opportunity to talk with her. She didnt remember we even did anything more than hang out and drink, and when I told her she got very distressed.
You know, despite the anxiety and all my other problems, this week I functioned surprisingly well precisely thanks to that validation I got, that someone would find me worthy of seduction. Now that I know it was only because she was blackout drunk, I really, really, really feel bad about myself.
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