How are you spending this Friday? Do you have any plans for the weekend?
Edging.
gooning.
Jelquing
fapping
Cooming
Trying to find anarchists to connect with
nutting
finding ways to not start working on my game for this jam
I will keep refreshing /siberia/ until my F5 key breaks.
>>577053What kind of music will they play?
>>577053>being alone in such places makes me uncomfortable.it is the other way around, when you are alone you can flow free like water, it is pure enjoyment. it becomes uncomfortable when people know you so you are beholden to things like reputation or expectations
>>577051you can also use ctrl + r
>>577080Electronic rock/hardcore I think. Not very into the genre, hence why I want go, new experience, nee opportunity to maybe meet people (fully aware most likely wont talk to anyone).
>>577081And what do you do there alone different then with people?
Anyway, I failed in getting proper sleep, so I can barely function in social situations when at full power, if I havent already bought the tickets I would just stay at home.
>>577353I did. Lots of moshing, clothes completely sweathed through, hopefully I wont get sick by the time I get home. Its the same every time, I go somewhere I have fun, and then the music stops, and Im back where I started, sad, lonely, self-conscious.
Attendee demographics were similar to what they always are, mostly small groups of men, followed by couples and occasional lone men, few non-visibly-taken women. Younger than me. Women there were so much my type, alt/goth/metal chicks, dark eyliner, chokers, sexy clothing, you know the type. Looking at them I feel like a stray dog out in the street, hoping someone would adopt me, and then I realize, no, people like dogs, stray gets pitty. I already wrote about this in the previous thread, Im not a dog but an insect. Ocassionaly someone might find me interesting enough to come poke me with a stick, but then they seem me move and buzz and get creeped out.
Caught a reflection on the way out, wet strands of hair falling on my face, and though to myself, "I look so hot, if I wasnt an impoverished autistic retard I would be swimming in pussy." What a waste. Only makes me anxious about my hairline, I want to get on finasteride, why isnt the thing over the counter, I have to spend 100€ at hair clinic just to get prescription, fucking hassle, and then roughly 50€ every month for actual medicine, which in my current financial situation is a significant expense.
The reason I cant sleep properly is that there is never anything to look forward to in the next day, just more work, more responsibilities, more time wasted and opportunities squandered.
>>577461Didn't the last time you complained about being an insect, a stranger came up to you just to call you sexy?
>>577461You seem to have some sort of psychological addiction
>>579275why does being miserable feel so good
Drinking vodka and smoking weed with my father.
>>579278Misery is easy especially for HFAs
Going to kill myself because I can't find this wallet
>>579292Have you left it in El Segundo?
what you boys goonin to Friday night?
>>574511i love nuts. especially macadamias
I'm going to ummmmmmm
>>577594Yeah, thats what "poke with a stick" was referring to.
>>579275To what?
Anyway, done absolutely nothing in two weeks, and have nothing to do this one either. Searching for some video games to kill time with. I have some responsibilities to addend to, but cant bring myself to. Its really hard to delay gratification when there is no gratification in sight.
>>581700Learning Excel and SQL, to help me with job search.
Oh, and I found one thing to do this weekend, local restaurant is serving vegan goose, and then Ill go to cinema to watch Substance. Fuck, wasted entire today downloading, installing and uninstalling various games because nothing strikes my fancy.
i'll spend hours searching for a game to play during the weekend, and then instead of playing it I'll doomscroll and just be miserable and a slave to the dopamine cycle
>>581801i also want to know what a vegan goose is very cool
Sitting in the house. Making game. Then turning off my brain while using exercise bike.
>>581839 what kind of game are you making???
>>581806>>581802Well the vegan goose remains mystery, I went to the restaurant in the afternoon, it was packed, they had line for the orders reaching almost outside, so I turned around and went home. Second time I decided to visit in the evening, still packed, and the goose already ran out. Went to asian bistro instead, had at best mediocre food with too much carbs, ruining todays cut, I would be better off not eating at all.
Also something broke in my internet browser (Waterfox), just stopped working out of nowhere, and I have no idea how to export out my bookmarks now, there is bunch of sites and facebook pages through which I look for local events there,so thats either gone or Ill have to figure out how to import them, one way or another its a fucking hassle, as if I had nothing better to do. What a miserable day, cant have one nice thing.
>>582024Thanks, I found that file, but I suspect it might have been overridden by empty file of new version of Waterfox I downloaded.
Currently on my way back from The Substance screening. It was ok. I really liked the first half, with more dramatic serious tone, dealing with aging and beauty and social pressure upon women, before it turns into Cronenberg movie, and then past that into a body horror farce. The screening room was almost empty, kind of surprising as the other cinema that was screening it today was fully booked. Unusual gender composition this time, mostly women. One lone old woman too, wonder how she felt watching this.
i just broke a tooth in half right now while eating popcorn, this is the fucking
WORST WEEKENDi don't want to go to the dentist during the weekend, i don't want tooooooo :C
>>582019 very cool
>>582211If your teeth break so easily its a deeper problem than just one tooth. GL spending the rest of your life fixing em
>>582211What the fuck how did you tooth break from popcorn?
>>582217>>582276i was biting one of those half-popped corns that are really hard
>>584888If you want to get deep into text processing, have a look at SNOBOL as well. SNOBOL patterns are more powerful and less fuzzy than regular expressions, which is why modern languages continue to reimplement them.
https://www.regressive.org/snobol4/ >>574471Getting drunk at home and watching my boomer animes.
I ate edible cannacookies and drank vodka. Was talking about stupid shit like how humans invented the first rock tools to crush bones and eat the nutrient rich bone marrow.
Going to numb the pain of the girl I'm crushing on not being into me by inviting my FWB over. Probably hanging out with some friends after work first.
I'm gonna do absolutely nothing
>>588924yeah goon weekend never lasts long enough
>>587754This is why I always disagree with boomer advice about "step outside your comfort zone" or "you never know until you try".
Unless you're going for a secure needed airtight profession or enterprise, there's no reason to "cast your breads across the waters."
i will
MURDER every single dentist in the world.
EVERY SINGLE ONE of these sadistic
DEMONSmotherfucker told me the ultrasound cleaning wouldn't hurt, but it was
LITERALLY one of the most painful things i have
EVER experienced. i almost
DIEDwe must
RETVRN to when we just pulled teeth out when something ain't right
>>588941 true
>>588986 rare 'wawa
I am going to waste my time by being alive
Going dancing and will hit on my friend again with the knowledge that she likes me but turned me down before because she thought I wanted a serious relationship instead of just hooking up.
Hey guy, I am announcing I am now merely a semi virgin. Roommates girlfriend decided to have drunken sex with me while he was away. The thing was 100% initiated and escalated by her, despite my numerous inquiries if she is ok with this and wishes to continue. There was no PIV and nobody orgasmed, she communicated that she wants to stop at some point, I really hope it was because she was too drunk or regretful and not because I am awful at this.
The slightly depressing part is I felt no passion, no lust I feel I should. I didnt get hard, I kissed and bit and licked generously, but that was pretty much just because that was the role I know I am supposed to play. Again, I really fucking hope the cause is just lack of chemistry or something, and not because I am actual bugman whose neural system never developed enough to experience such affects.
Also she invited me for a threesome with her boyfriend, on this one my hope is that it was just a drunken idea, and our encounter was cheating, I would prefer it to being involved into some poly cuckold thing.
Another week wasted… sigh…
>>589308>Cry like a bitch from a bit of scaling>But long for the good ol days where teeth were pulled for a yes or a no without anesthesiaYou're one of thoses faggots uh?
Good luck to frag me tho…
>>591576fumbled the bag hard, sorry about your ED.
Its easy to smile when a welfare state pays fof all the dentist appoinments.
>>591582Its not just ED (I dont think I have ED, I can get hard, I just didnt in this particular situation), its everything. I expected sloppy french kissing to send electricity down my spine, feminine smell of skin, intoxicating taste of pussy, the kind of thing I read about in smutty fanfictions. She had no smell, barely any taste, now that I think about it, I didnt loose a single article of clothing, she didnt even pull my shirt off, I kind of feel insulted by that.
>>591614Well are you attracted to her? Did the thing about her being a girlfriend throw you off?
>>591615She is a young conventionally attractive woman, maybe it was just performance anxiety, whole time I was very keenly aware it is my job to please her, did my best. I dont think it was the girlfriend part, I didnt think about that at all during the act.
>>591590imagine being subjected to medieval torture in your mouth and
pay for it.
>>591537I got too high to make a move :(
Someone broke into my car today and messed it up. I'm literally a reactionary now
>>591793Aw man. Better luck next time
>>591847I know that feel anon, a good thief is a dead thief.
>>591873>>591847Now you know why I don't respect glorifying or defense of lumpenproletariat.
It's one thing to be poor and homeless and jobless.
That's just an unfortunate fate.
But to be a thief, especially towards fellow proles?
That's unacceptable.
>>592514Don't overthink it so much, she was drunk, probably doesn't care you guys didn't manage
>>591617>>592514Sounds like performance anxiety, I get it too often…because sex is so rare and I have no ability to reliably get more, so I feel a ton of pressure to make it count. Otherwise I can get fully hard with no physical contact when looking at porn.
>>592551I finally got an opportunity to talk with her. She didnt remember we even did anything more than hang out and drink, and when I told her she got very distressed.
You know, despite the anxiety and all my other problems, this week I functioned surprisingly well precisely thanks to that validation I got, that someone would find me worthy of seduction. Now that I know it was only because she was blackout drunk, I really, really, really feel bad about myself.
bump
>>599176nah like 37 signs you have turbo autism in girls
>>599270Why do you have to go? Is it for your sister?
>>599270Why are you watching a baby shower that sounds perverted.
>>591614It sounds like you're going off some pretty demented fantasies. In case you haven't heard this pearl yet, don't base your expectations off of porn; Especially drawn porn made by turbo virgins.
Sex is messy and funny and awkward. Chill out and have a sense of humour. Also, don't fuck sleazy cheaters, you creep.
>>599304Nice, I'd hang with you and fool around while we chilled
another weekend smashing my head trying to figure out what game to make only to make a shitty prototype and get bored of the idea
>>599335internet overdose but instead of streaming it's making bad posts on niche imageboards
>>599182y not eat tacos AND talk oooh????
>>599272>>599303 very cool meme
it's for my cousin, and it's been very long since i last went to a family gathering on my dad's side of the family, because i've been skipping dozens of them, so i kind of feel like i need to go to this one at least
>>599284i'm mentally a baby, so it's not creepy
fridey bump
>>593064She 100% remembered but you were so awkward during her attempted seduction that she had to pretend that she didn't remember so you would never bother her ever again
>>591847That was Zankaria he was muttering something about abolishing commodity production I saw him do it.
>>604434I've been told I have a voice for radio
and face too! I could read to you.
>>604435Please do, I'd love to hear your voice!
clocked out, time to spend the next several hours being forced to babysit my brother's kids!
>>604466Well, this how a lot of kids get to bond with extended family.
Or maybe we should do away with family altogether because people think childcare is a curse
>>604466Teach them about anime and manga, you will never be asked to babysit again.
>>604470Are you still stuck in the early 2000's?
I'm going to be going to work later this afternoon, I work the swing shift at my job and won't leave till almost midnight. But at least the weekend will be here.
just came back home from work and I think I might goon a little
Crying at how I wasted my life.
I'm ready to get home from work and smoke a fat bowl
>>604470uygha they all know what anime is and watch shit like JJK and my hero
>>604481Wait a few week for your dick to heal, when you goon for the first time after a long time you cum buckets.
>>604493there can be no true pleasure without pain. according to the gooner's gospel.
>>604499what greater pain than lack of gooning?
>>604501If you don't let your dick heal, you will never goon again.
>>60792420% chance for infection. Clean wound and learn not to give hand first to dogs you dont personally know.
>>607924Ask the owner if the dog is vaccinated and go to the doctor ASAP.
>>607924Deserved, respect private property.
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he was one of those small fancy dogs, so probably vaccinated???????? and the wound was very tiny (those that rly hurt for no reason), and i cleaned it
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>>607924>>607926>Clean wound and learn not to give hand first to dogs you dont personally know.This. You let them sniff your hand and then gauge their reaction. If they growl or bark, definitely don't put your hand in.
T. pets many dogs in people's yards
>>607945You are on your way to the doctor right now, right? Healthcare is free where you live and you have nothing to lose just some time, correct? When was the last time you had a tetanus shot? You need to get one. The dog has to be observed, if it was rabid it will die before you, you can still be vaccinated until you start showing symptoms, then it is too late and you are certain to die a very painful death. It's all preventable, you just have to go to the doctor.
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it was actually not the dog that i wanted to pet that bit me. i was petting the big dog that's already my homie, but then out of nowhere the tiny dog came and bit me
Ive come to the realisation that the reason why most people nowadays find life depressing is because theyve been expecting too much out of life.
I mean seriously. I listen to a lot of people talk about the futility of life and most of the reason they give is just because they have to go to work.
They don't have anything wrong with their lives.
They're not disabled, nor in poverty, not socially neglected.
They're just self-absorbed in their life goal to "change the world."
Our education and religions are guilty of promoting idealism to people boosting their ego far too much.
And it doesn't help that our legal systems are built around ego protection.
There's more discussion about "changing the world" than actually chagning the world.
>>608043I worked 237 8 hour days last year plus like one 6 hour day. I almost want to be a teacher just to have summer vacation again.
>>604493I can't wait that long I have no willpower. Its been over 20 years since I went more than 2 days without masturbating
>>608025capitalist realism ass, pol ass, post
>>608095Case in point.
You think capitalism is the only form of oppression?
It doesn't matter where among the economic/political axes you go, there will always be limitations that prevent utopia.
Your behavior is not unlike the poltards you accuse me of being. In fact, you have more in common with pol than you think. Most of you LeftyPol patrons have too much in common with 4chan and other reactionary spaces.
>>608123shut the fuck up nazi don't you ever respond to me again. fuck off back to pol, better yet kill yourself
>>608125See what I mean?
LettyPol claims to be about "rational/empathetic" discussion but all there is is just accusations of "Nazi" for not agreeing with someone else's opinion.
And this vitriol is exactly how 4chan patrons act like when I say people expect too much out of life
Difference is, they call me a commie/jew/uyghur".
Once again, you LeftyPol patrons only differ from 4chan in their symbols and political axis.
The contempt and vitriol remain exactly the same. Even the vocabulary.
LeftyPol accuses women of being soulless heartless sirens for rejecting them. Just like 4chan.
LeftyPol complains about Gen Z and boomers "ruining the culture".
Just like 4chan
LeftyPol whines about working and longs to extend childhood because they think they had more "freedom".
Just like 4chan
>>608125>>608129LeftyPol fetishizes interracial sex.
Just like 4chan
LeftyPol is obsessed with their childhood media
Just like 4chan
LeftyPol hates Israel
Just like 4chan
LeftyPol thinks neurotypicals are inherently evil and bland, just like 4chan
>>608129>>608135Hope this is bait, because there's some really embarrassing out of touch liberal takes here. I'm gonna bite anyway because I've got nothing better to do.
>LeftyPol accuses women of being soulless heartless sirens for rejecting them. Just like 4chan.>LeftyPol complains about Gen Z and boomers "ruining the culture". Just like 4chan>LeftyPol thinks neurotypicals are inherently evil and bland, just like 4chanWe don't. We reject identity politics. Though we like to be edgy very often.
>LeftyPol whines about workingBased. We do recognize the fact that people are being way overworked today for the value they produce for their bosses. There's a lot of data to back this up.
>and longs to extend childhood because they think they had more "freedom". Just like 4chanWe're childish and cringe because we're mostly millennials. This isn't a leftypol thing, it's a millennial thing.
>LeftyPol fetishizes interracial sex. Just like 4chanBased
>LeftyPol is obsessed with their childhood media. Just like 4chanBased
>LeftyPol hates Israel. Just like 4chanWe hate the state of Israel, and for great reasons. 4channers hate all jews, and for the most schizophrenic reasons.
Thinking of finally making a PC with the money I've saved up since I started working a few months ago. Don't really see the point of consoles anymore (beyond nintendo) since most of their stuff is thankfully coming to PC nowadays. Not sure what parts to get beyond looking at logical increments though.
>>608147Eveything you said is purely in denial.
Except for this:
>We're childish and cringe because we're mostly millennials. This isn't a leftypol thing, it's a millennial thing.Except, it's a Gen X, Y, and Z thing.
>>608168 the nile is a river in egypt
>>611234siberian wildlife thread
>>611256the ones with an "X" are ones I already made
and the ones that i haven't made are 99% just really, really bad ideas, so u'r probably not gonna find anything useful there, but who knows?
!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!??!? >>611289I wanna smoke weed with a chihuahua!!
This Friday night I will attempt to remove the wild animal from my home.
>>611349what kind of wild animal glowanon?
>>611350…and then i said that's not a hippo, that's my wife!
No weed, no alcohol, just staring at a wall until Monday.
>>611350It has legs.
>>611355Not me.
>>611361>Not me.obviously, so how's your wonderful ball and chain?
I failed out of school today on some bullshit. Being proletarian isnt that bad. I can produce value. If i didnt fail i would've become another parasite so this is best for my soul. Going to try to get job that produces value. Thought about crashing out against the middle class but now is not the time.
>>611371cringe, stop pretending you have a soul, and start engaging in some actually existing anarchism.
>>611374I know im cringe but anarchism is more so. Teacher emailed me after i posted that, that didnt fail out really because i can withdraw keep my aid and gpa, and continue where i fucked up next year. My teachers and fellow students are all mostly bourgeois devils but i found worse one today.
Im undecided though. I basically get another free attempt at what i was doing but i can also abandon the degree im 75 percent done with to go into something that produces value. Electrician. Trucker.
A medical parasite has no power or even reason to rise up. An electrician or trucker has much more potential to fuck up the system.
Proletarians have souls and morality. Bourgeois—mddle-classes and capitalists—don't. Example from literally 5 minutes ago:
Im at eye exam right now and the bitch doctor who probably owns the place has new machine that scans eyes for damage. Not covered by insurance so she charges 20$ to use it. Having eyes dialated does the same thing and is covered but doctor is too fucking lazy and greedy to dialate. This doctor is middle class and capitalist double bourgeois.
>>611583That's awesome, I love taking a shit.
>>611581i'm sending you intelligence energy, so you learn all this fancy 🤓 stuff efficiently
>>611583 very cool!!!
>Friday
<Go out dancing
>Saturday
<Go out dancing
>Sunday
<Tell the girl who wants to be my gf I see her as a hookup
>>611359Time to stare at a wall again, but only for tonight at least.
i plan on playing Final Fantasy 7 for the PS1. I started and abandoned it like 3 times, but now I'm feeling like actually playing it for real this time
>>614189 very cool
>>614188 very cool
>>614196 hey, don't be mean to ur hoes!!!
>>614199 y don't you play some videogames & jack off
>>614230I need my nut for tomorrow, I'll be going out then.
off the clock
time to spend the weekend making incremental progress on this game that barely exists
>>614257 very cool!!! what's the game gonna be all about?
i spent all of friday being berated for being autistic and having an emotional meltdown. literally got called a robot, compared to data from star trek in a derogatory way, but somehow they are the victim and not me. i literally just asked to watch a different youtube video because the one they were watching was upsetting me due to my ptsd, and they screamed at me to get out. i freaked out and left and threw my phone and a chair because i was upset. it really seemed like they were explicityl saying they cared more about getting to choose what they watch than my feelings or company. i drove off without my phone thinking i was going to get myself lost enough that i had to kill myself. i calmed down and returned only to be berated further over text. everything i have ever said interpreted in the most bad faith way possible, things i never meant at all. stupid dark jokes taken literally and seriously. all of the constant effort i put in to be normal and not offensive taken for granted, ignored, undone, mocked even. i tried to defend myself via text but i basically gave up out of fear of losing the friendship. they obviously care so much less about me than i do them, they use the fact that this friendship is imortant to me to threaten me and control me. i drive them to work every day at 4 fucking AM, i drive them to pick up their girlfriend to fuck across the hall at my house, i let them make me feel insane and like a freak for disliking literally anything (apparently i'm not allowed to dislike phones, i can't get them to understand that they are implying that the only reason i don't like phones is because i'm a pathetic freakish introvert failure) i don't want to think this way about my best friend but i can't help it at the moment. i have genuinely tried so hard to be good to them and they just shit on it. they can't accept me having any different opinion than them, they think i think i'm smarter than them if i disagree, they take it as a personal attack. i have trouble maintaining eye contact and focusing on multiple things at once, and when i have trouble focusing on them while i'm in the middle of a difficult video game or text i need to read, they get pissed like i'm intentionally ignoring them.
i don't fucking know what to do. i thought they udnerstood me but they spend all day repudiating everything about my character and shitting on me in ableist ways. i had an autistic breakdown and they respond by yelling at me all day and criticising literally every aspect of my identity. i wish i had the balls to cut my own throat right here but instead i am spewing this angst into the void i guess. i don't want them to hate me and i don't want to hate them. it just feels like our entire friendship has been a fraud, if i'm supposed to take any of this seriously. our argument is only over becasue i essentially capitulated and let them walk all over me, but i'm still upset and i don't konw how to express that without making them upset. i don't want them to be punished or upset, i just want them to understand how what they said makes me feel. i've never felt so isolated and alienated in my entire life. i've been at the brink of my mental health for a while now and i don't know how/if i'm going to get past this. i can't kick them out because i'm technically their landlord and i refuse to abuse that power dynamic, i don't charge rent or anything i just ask for help buying the weed that we share. he has his own room and full control over the door/lock, so i don't understand why this is all about his autonomy for him. its insane to act like my request o not watch certain content while im in the room is taken as an attack on his autonomy, he has plenty of time when we are not hanging to watch that kind of stuff, it feels very ableist to shit on people for having media triggers like that.
idfk i'm probably a cucked idiot according to you chan-adjacent troglodytes. i am pathetic for thinking a place like this could offer any empathy. i am just howling into the void.
>>614400trvthnvke, gonna go fellate a bong rn to get a better high
>>614409the overwhelming majority of people act like petty, impulsive assholes and i'm sorry you had to find out about it the hard way. just know that if your "friends" want to make this a zero-sum game, there is no shame in you also treating your relationship as transactional. as long as you stay civil and don't become a jaded prick yourself, no one has any right to fault you for that.
>>614409uygha they are abusing you, get rid of them asap or it will only get worse.
>>614409get rid of them… seriously…
>>614409why do you allow yourself to live with such disgusting "things"? seriously, kick those "things" out.
also, get better standards on who is worth associating with, don't just befriend/interact with trash that looks human…
marrying some anon on /siberia/
time to rest for 2 days by refreshing internet pages
friday my last day on leftypol.org before i try to take a long break, last time i took a break i rage quit but this time i've had so much fun i don't know if i'll want to take a break.
didn't enjoy playing final fantasy a whole lot last weekend, but started playing the Halo games and i'm
HOOKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>>614409 I'm curious to hear from you, fellow autismanon. How did the situation with your roommates develop?
>>617855 me, mayhaps?!?!??! 😳
>>617963 that's not resting, it's tiresome. i think u should watch stuff instead
>>617966 what made u ragequit?
>>618102 y r u showing me metroid creatures??????????????
regardless of the reason, you reminded me that i still gotta play metroid prime 2 and 3
>>618042>what made u ragequit?there was a wave of idpol bait and some /pol/ raiders using anfem flags, i wasn't paying attention and posted prn in a leftypol thread because i thought i was in siberia, got a short ban and the thread saged.
>>618149>posted prn in a leftypol threadholy based
>>574471Poker night with friends. One of them is professional poker player so my goal is to lose as little money as possible.
Gonna do a little reading of this book the girl that friendzoned me said was like me and my FWB. Then I'm hitting up a house party I got invited to by a lesbian (I wonder if she thinks I'm gay lol). Finally ending the day cuddling with my FWB once she gets back in town from vacation late at night. Getting friendzoned really ate at me bros, I can't seem to get my chutzpah back. There was this raver girl that I wanted to hit on, but my friend did it first and now they're dating while I'm stuck in a weird place with this girl I'm not that into.
Coping and seething on Siberia
>>624016I see enough C in my work.
>>624018I read SICP and am reading Lisp in Small Pieces but I was thinking about something not programming related for once, sorry.
Having a Valentine's date with my gf.
>Flowers
Bought
>Gift Silver Chain
Wrapped
>Restaurant Reservation
Made
I'm ready.
Got broken up with 2 days ago. I'm going to a valentines day rave, debating whether to take an edible first.
>>624023Update:
Valentine's date went great. We had pasta in an Italian restaurant within the historical district. We were seated right next to the glass window panel that covered an open wall with a night-time view across the city creek.
She got me some parfum and some more hygiene products.
playing more halo games
watching jojo Stone Ocean
questioning my life choices
>>624023>>624456 very cool! good for you, séxo haver
>>624042 how did it go
>>624456Did she also suck the smegma off your penis?
>>624461>how did it goDid not drink or get stoned because it can make me sad on the comedown. I danced for like 4 hours straight with covid lol. Felt a little weird and congested yesterday took a test today. Approached a few women on the floor, but only one danced with me. Hung out with a group from a city a couple hours away and they were gushing about how great it is here. Truth is it's a shithole with nothing to do. Texted my ex when I got home after 2am, but between the exhaustion and sickness I wasn't terribly sad about her just numb and a little lonely.
>>624497 that's a W in my book
good for you, grass toucher
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>>624544Is the game on right now?
>>626499Ok I found a working stream for anyone interested:
https://time4tv.top/watch2/sons.php?120 I am going to sit in my orgone accumulator.
6 liters of beer, 35cl of good vodka, 20 grams of weed in two qualities.
>>629400What are you going to do with all that?
>>629452Get moderately wasted. Chilling with my dog drinking vodka and listening to music. Tomorrow seeing my homies in another poker night.
>>629400 very
>>629462 cool
>>629521 u should take the "how to be slightly less awesome" course because u'r too awesome
>How are you spending this Friday?
Maybe opening up the grill season now that snow has melted.
I'm trying to get a job. That's my Friday. But in fact that's my everyweek
>>629752 thx for asking ❤
i'm going back to college because i want more money. this time i'll get a useful degree…
problem is that i'm a
trillion years old, and i'm already tired before the kkkollege kkklaSSes even begin
how about u how are u doing this friday????
>>634985As am I. Well on Saturday anyways a 6 day work week this week
Im gonna do nothing and work a shitty job!
It's Friday finally, I had enough of this fucking week.
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>>637871 🌈
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are u saying that we're fat homos or that we're really gay???
Do nothing, can't even fap. But it's kinda okay because I just want to sleep.
>>637973What do you want to discuss seriously?
After hard work week im satisfied and tired. Drinking vodka and smoking some bowls of weed.
my friday was RUINED >:C
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i'm being CENSORED because my chihuahua folder is too epic
I'M BEING OPPRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:C
BLOODY MURDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:CCCCC
The one time I make plans and they're calling for a major ice storm.
If I die, I die
>>640813Hookers and cocaine
>>641039Prostitute appointments have to be set up in advance, are too expensive andI have no desire to have sex with people who dont want to have sex with me.
I dont know any plugs.
>>641286It's okay, I don't remember what I did on mine, probably the same thing.
>>641298
Okay but at 30 you get your wizard powers, that must count for something, right?
>>641298
I beg to differ. Men are patronized for wanting any festivities for themselves.
But if we can be honest, most adult females don't celebrate birthdays either.
Hell, most people stop celebrating birthdays after age thirteen.
>>641310Adult women seem to celebrate each others birthdays more than men from what I have seen at least when it comes to gift giving. Maybe they don't have outright birthdays but they will often give each other gifts. As a guy I don't really feel like doing of that of course so I usually get nothing other than my mother and sister. I don't really care much for my birthday or anyone else's for that matter
>>641310>Hell, most people stop celebrating birthdays after age thirteen.Thats just when they stopped inviting you.
>>641464No self-respecting biologist would say anything like that.
I'm going to masturbate until my hands hurt
>>643172I'm going to masturbate until my dick hurts
>>641464the meaning of life is getting someone to bite my thumb? i don't get it. looks like it hurts
im jackin off this friday
>>645515Being lonely at work really does hit different than being lonely at home.
>>645519That's why I like working at night. It's less lonely when you're mostly by yourself
>>645515>>645519At least at home I can play all my video games, watch anime, wank, and sleep.
Physical work gets you tired on different level. Took a nap after work and after that I opened the more expensive vodka bottle and smoked some purple punch marijuana from my bong. Then some meat, fish, potato with butter and now going to sleep.
>>646063Do it and report back to us
>>646063I take one every workday to my workplace. I like to stand in the "articulate".
>>650027Can I come with you?
>>646199 AMAZING news!!!!! round of applause!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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i'm not killing myself anymore
Masturbating
>>650036Sure. Why are you nightwalking?
On my way I passed a local victims of communism memorial, wanted to post a photo here but there was homeless person sitting in front of it drinking beer, which arguably would make for a very artistic photo, but I felt awkward snapping a picture when he is looking at me.
Getting drunk alone in my room. It's okay because that is what I want to do.
>>646063They are frustratingly slow and get stuck in traffic like any other bus. More trains = More communism.
So much drugs, masturbation, and programming.
Very impressive stuff.
Personally am going to shitpost all day.
Having an anxiety attack.
It was nice at the beginning, I went seeing people playing music, good local musicians, met a friend I didn't see in a long while, had a few beers, everything was nice.
Then it went to shit pretty quickly: we went to another bar that was closing like retards, one regular woman who is in her 50s but still sexy af was talking to some aggressive motherfucker who looked really high on cocaine and his weird drunk friend who immediately mumbled to me "if anyone has a problem, I will beat them up", like wut?
We were supposed to go to another bar to chill out with other regulars, but like a drunk dumbass she kept talking to the sketchy ass people instead of following us, so she grabbed me and asked me to bring her to the subway station, but it was too late, they wouldn't stop harassing us. She hugged me like I was her bf, was almost crying, saying "I know anon, I don't know you". I tried to tell them calmly but firmly she was afraid and to let us go to the station, and they still wouldn't fuck off.
So my instinct was "Let's go to the main square, so everyone can see us, then we can get you a taxi like the sketchy guy said".
Luckily some young men who looked like business school students immediately reacted seeing the whole situation, and seemed to be truly concerned and wanted to protect her, they even thought I was one of the harassers lol.
We had some talk, explained the situation, I said to the one of the harasser, "man you keep saying 'I won't rape you', why are you saying this?" but at some point, I told one of the young men, "I'm getting the fuck out of there, this guy will want to fuck me up once she is safely home" and I fleed quietly as soon as they all forgot I even existed.
I feel like such a coward and maybe the young men were also rapists, but I already got assaulted last week, I still have a headache where my aggressor repeatedly punched me, so fuck it. I'm not a damn superhero.
Our fucking corrupt politicians created this whole mess, copying our policies on dying America, and this is the result, and we can't even carry guns.
I'm thinking of carrying at least some pepper spray, maybe a knife too, in my left hand to strike at the liver like my ex-military told me (but if you use it wrong, it's game over). Or maybe get a firearm permit and one of these concealable guns, or legal revolvers. Learning a martial art, taking self-defense classes, I don't know, I'm lost, but I need to GTFO of this declining shithole, it wasn't that way 3 years ago.
FUCK
>>650282>I feel like such a coward and maybe the young men were also rapists, but I already got assaulted last week, I still have a headache where my aggressor repeatedly punched me, so fuck it. I'm not a damn superhero.Our fucking corrupt politicians created this whole mess, copying our policies on dying America, and this is the result, and we can't even carry guns.
I'm thinking of carrying at least some pepper spray, maybe a knife too, in my left hand to strike at the liver like my ex-military told me (but if you use it wrong, it's game over). Or maybe get a firearm permit and one of these concealable guns, or legal revolvers. Learning a martial art, taking self-defense classes, I don't know, I'm lost, but I need to GTFO of this declining shithole, it wasn't that way 3 years ago.
FUCK
America is safer now than it was years ago. Murder and rape were more common and often went unreported or was judicially neglected.
Also you bar-hopping especially tailing after some sexy milf with no common sense is just asking for trouble.
But hey who am I to judge.
But for real I avoid alcohol in social settings like crazy. I especially avoid drunks.
They're given too much sympathy from society.
Broke up with gf and took sleeping pills to get over the day. Today is kinda fine going to smoke dude weed lmao and play my autism simulators.
>>655366So a regular day then?
today i will read slop
i woke up too late to realistically walk anywhere today so i'm probably just gonna goon to gay porn and depress for the rest of the day, maybe rewatch some anime
>>655452Try doing 10 jumping jacks and reward yourself with guilt free gooning.
literally no plans, just uni and that's it…
Getting wasted home with too much of the green stuff and 4 liters beer and medicine. I just hope I wouldnt have hangover on workers day and for once join worker march now that I joined party.
>>655366Grace chan this is always your home bro/sis.
>>655635 thanks for asking, but i'm sorry, i'm not ready to talk about it. shouldn't have mentioned it
>>655496Why not bring the party to them?
>>655740Hope shit gets better for you, friend. Melhoras.
rotting on IRC, trying different servers. canternet is based but kinda dead. also applying for TOEFL certificate so I have all requirements to study abroad in china
>>655366same on the third part
>>655635le brazil experience, the only remedy is immigration tbh.
>>655740melhoras
Frrriiiidaaay night motherfuckers
Watchin Hulu
Was at a counter protest against right-wing march. Ended up sucessful, march had to be disolved because they got blocked for hours and couldnt get to their destination.
I had a mad headache and was throwing up all night it was awful
I was going to get some steak cheese fries and play some darktide but I was all fucked up
>>656010Migraine? I hope you feel better now!
Ooooooh I'm stroking it!
Currently at a party alone after my aquintaces left. Feel awkward as shit.
>>656063
The fuck does that have to do with anything?
>>574471poppin pills, eating weed, drinking coffee w sambucha, getting chinese food out of town with the fam, and whatever else comes my way.
Stay blessed frens.
After work I hope to have a few beers on a second story porch and do some writing. Then I might go see a movie and hang out with my cat before bed.
It's almost been four weeks since I last bust a nut. I'm gonna get high asf and fap a few out.
I think today is the day I switch out the blanket I put over my rotting old upholstered armchair for a clean one.
Walked for like four hours, now I am going to read some scifi book.
>>665386me too :C
>>655756 obrigado ❤
só seu post vi agora, desculpa
>>680674Good job on beating Sekiro!
>>680734 thanks!!!!!!!!!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
hos is ur weekend going?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!??!!??!?
nothing to do
I wanted to go to bed early to fix my sleep dept, but they had strawberry Monster on sale at grocery store, so now I wont fall asleep for couple hours.
>>684568I remember how everyone pretended to hate this song just because it was made by a teenage girl even though it's a proper banger.
>>684600because the lyrics were kinda meh,
yesterday was thursday today is friday
ate my cereals
party is party
also if she was very young in this song how did they drive the car legally?
>>684630>also if she was very young in this song how did they drive the car legally?Teenagers can legally drive, dummy
Also most lyrics of pop music are meh.
>>684600This.
They did the same for Justin Bieber.
im posting
this friday was boring, just like the last one
Drunk on vodka and high on the finest buddha. Sleeping with my dog after spending day with family.
>>689643
Sonic can go fuck himself
>>691784Play with yourself
>>691784cyberpunk
im literally johnny silverhand
>>691830When he had his speech I was like wow he's me too
>>574471I brushed my teeth
I washed my face
I ate pizza
I drank coffee
I drank water
I pissed
I browse internet
I chanted amitahba 2000 times
I read
Gonna drink because wow mao told me it's good for me and it's human nature bro.
>>691777 i chew bubblegum when I'm on a diet, and it works for me!!! makes me feel less hungry
>>691814 imma play with myself
>>691829 imma play with u
>>691830 imma play with keanu
i played cyberpunk already :C
it's a lovely game, I hope u'r having a great time
>>691837>I brushed my teethvery cool
>I washed my face very cool
>I ate pizzavery cool
>I drank coffeevery cool
>I drank watervery cool
>I pissedvery cool
>I browse internetvery cool
>I chanted amitahba 2000 timesvery cool
>I readvery cool
>>691838 i love listening to dark ambient!!!!!!!!!!
>>691840 hitler also drank water though
>>694341Trial vs prenium version
>>694369I think its really shit, bring back the ultra blue
>>694369>>694536I used to like the lemonade and ice tea monster. I didn't see it too often and I don't know if they still make it
I was supposed to buy 3 grams of ketamine but I slept during the day and I woke up in the middle of the night. I'm now thinking about this friend who recently left her boyfriend (or not?) and how we could have sex together if she feels like it (probably not)
>>694578Idk if they are still produced, but I do keep finding them in vietnamese grocery stores.
>>691914did you find a game to play
>>696719you can wear gloves man
>>696720Like 70% of my motivation for going there is possibility of getting laid, so gloves wont help.
>>694614i have!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i've been playing Yakuza 0, my first yakuza game, and i'm loving it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 💖💖💖🌈💖🌈💖🌈🌈💖
what about u
>>646063People on here care too much about sex
DeviantArt would care more about it
>>702216No you filthy sex-haver, we care too much about
TRAINS.
Survived back home. Im glad I dont carry antyhing.
thinking about killing myself
>>704753I am stroking my cock right now.
>>706622How lucky! Have fun!
I'M GONNA JERK OFF
i keep telling myself to save energy save energy save energy ill do it tomorrow you have work save energy but everytime i save energy i dont do the stuff i wanna do(draw make smut, work on 3d stuff) GRAHH NO MORE SAVING WNERGY ENERGY DEFICIT ENERGY DEBT FUCK THIS
>>706860This may be the best thing you can do
>>691784play Of The Devil. its apparently like those phoenix wright games except ur in cyber crapitalism and the character designs are neat
or if you dont wanna think play cloudpunk. ur a delivery driver/taxi driver and u meet quirky(actual real not clickbait) characters in cyberpunk city
>>706865Weed+
Viagra+VR headset makes for good fapping.
get groceries, probably jerk off, depress knowing that i have work tmrw, that's most of it
I jerked off looking at pictures of Magica De Spell on rule34.xxx and now I'm thinking of going back to sleep.
Going to spend my Friday smoking the new Camacho I got, some weed after, listening to Kino and Гражданская Оборона
>>708537What kinda music? EDM?
>>694535today's trial is yesterday's premium
>>708642I hope you like drugs
Today I jerked off to that deer character from League of Legends.
What a fucking miserable day. I probably got food poisoning from a burger (last time in my fucking life I am eating anything prepared by an indian or arab or whateverthefuck), so I was too sick to sleep, I forgot my tent in a hotel so I had to go back for it and missed my bus, had to buy ridiculously overpriced replacement train ticket, almost missed the train because they switched embarking platform twice, its completely fucking crammed, my legs hurt, and it already had 20 minutes delay before even leaving main station, so unless my transfer train waits for it Im fucked. Fucking krauuyghurs, I hate this country, the only redeeming features are thise nice working class neighbourhoods in eatern Berlin, the rest can be cleanessed in nuclear fire for all I care.
>>708804I cant do psychadelics because you need to be in good headspace to have pleasant trip, and I am never in good headspace.
>>708847typical deutsche bahn lol
I am spend. Its not even midnight and I am already back in my tent, going to sleep. I am tired, everything hurts. Wasted so much fucking money on this trip, all for the priviledge of sleeping on hard ground in cold. Why did I come here? The same reason I bother to do anything, a delusional hope of finding someone who could give me affection. I am giving up. I am 30, I am only going to get uglier, the experience gap between me and others will only grow, attractive women are only going to become rarer and their standards higher. Some people just were not made for others. I want to give up, but tomorrow I am just going to do the same fucking thing, crawl out of my hole, seek company of others, cry when it fails. I dont want to wake up anymore. Good night.
>>708847>>708992Try not to overblow things. I get you're upset now but you can still have a nice day tomorrow. If the trip isn't working out the way you planned then maybe just try to see some touristy stuff. Also don't be a little racist creep, that's not cool, but it's ok I know you're just upset.
>>709269It's OK, at least you tried.
>>709478It doesnt feel ok. Usually when I go do these things, even when it doesnt go the way I hoped (always), I am still glad I didnt spend the weekend locked in my room instead, but thus time? I think I would be better off home.
Whatever, Im gonna spend the last few hours of music left trying to squeeze some pleasant feeling out of my brain.
>>709519I dont want to write it down, I dont want to think about it, I want to purge memory from my brain with an electric drill.
Anyway, I tried ectasy for the first time. Took 200-something mg tablet, didnt last very long, but for like an hour I felt like I ascended to normiedom. I was having fun unrestrained by my onmipresent internal censor, the eye shut down, not like with alcohol where your consciouss get dulled down, but fully awake, fully aware. I was really considering walking up to a woman and flirt with her, and most amazingly, I could internally formulate how, this thing that I always thought I was unable of due to low social skills, but turns out I do have them, just chained down when in my normal state of mind. I must recommend to all autistic retards to try it, it is a wonderdrug.
And yes, the thing I dont want to write about is a reason why autistic retards need that internal censor to make them carefully think trice about what they speak.
>>709597Write it down, it makes it easier.
>>709597so you said something to a random woman while on drugs ? lmao who cares,she will forget it as a bad experience into a funny anecdote in 2 weeks max
>>709683Anyways you'll be male #2357 who's tried to flirt with her this year anyways. It'll actually make her feel better about herself for being so desirable
>>709691I'm having pizza tonight for dinner.
>>709692 and how does this make u feel
>>709694Excited. I like pizza.
>>709691Just become a NEET dummy
>>709748Just tell us already. Did you start talking about Albanian youth's use of abandoned bunkers? Did you infodump about the first international?
>>709753No and no and its too retarded for anyone to guess. The memory is already getting hazy and emotional impact dull, lets leave it be.
In transit town while waiting for a train I bought an ice cream proudly bearing "original DDR recipe" label (or something along those line, mein Deutsch nich sehr gut). It sucked. Say what you want about amerikkka, you cant get better than Ben & Jerry.
>>709805No.
During the train journey I got robbed for almost 10€ by I guess a ukrainian beggar, but not like a homeless person, I mean the kind that tells you a sob story about their 8 month pregnant wife and how they dont have money for ticket to get home, promissing to return it back, not targeting small donators, but some dumb schmuck (me I guess) willing to give larger quantities of money. And I am pretty sure it wasnt actual real story, because the shit was clearly rehersed. I asked him for ID actually considering donating more (I know I am a fucking idiot), said he does not have it on him. I feel profound sense of loss over it, the upside being it is overshadowing bad feeling caused by the event I refuse to speak.
Just let me fucking go home already. I hope grocery store is still open, have nothing to eat.
And its finally over. Im writing this post from comfort of my shitty little room. Still have to do laundry and clean the muddy tent. Supermarket was closed, but at I found small grocery store where I could buy coconut milk to go with leftover cereals so I dont have to go to sleep hungry. On the bus back this old man caught my attention, he seem distraught, very sad expression, his mount was constantly moving like he is mumbling to himself. Had whole bunch of full bags around him, and a guitar case. Though occurred to me he is recently homeless. I hope not, I get sad and keep having bad thoughts. I dont know how to deal with evils of this world.
So this would be the final footnote on my social year. Didnt do anything. It has been two years since finishing college and failing to secure appropriate employment, but the first one at least I kind of did stuff, moved, tried to get my shit together, but this year has been just a hole in my life. I need to get moving, start sending CVs again, study something more, skill up, get an actual career started, something I wouldnt have to be ashamed to say when people ask me, paying enough to rent me my own small flat. Bulk season is starting, so for the next 6 months my food budget is going to inflate too. My time on this world is running out, I have to live a life. Getting socio-economic position in order is the first step, I cant interact with women bearing the shame of my low value. Then maybe I find some affection.
>>709716 but how am i going to pay for my chihuahua pic datacenters??? :C
>>709727 i am, & i'm whining about uni because i'm lazy :C
>>709847Do you know what would increase your socio-economic position? Telling us what you did that got you so down.
>>710870If I saw her in the street the precum would be flowing. I'd have to run home to jack off
>>710870Was she carrying produce?
>>710872No, she was just walking, looking at her phone.
I jerked off to regular porn today.
wasted the day doing jackshit
I jerked off to Evie Rain.
Tonight I am going to make my bulking diet plan (nevermind, realised I still have old paper with last year's scribbled on it) and workout and then take a shower, listen to ASMR videos in bed for a while, and hopefully fall asleep early so I wake up early and can get on the grind for a weekend. I need to get my shit together, cant live like this.
>>712641You still here? I hope you are.
>>714883dont worry, you can try next weekend
Just got my paycheck. Considering buying amphetamines and going out clubbing.
gonna listen to Thou
>>715869y is jack black playing punk rock dressed like a pirate
i'm going to look for a game to play during the weekend and not find it and then get depressed
>>715880careful with the hard drugs, comrade
>>715960 what is that
>>717868 very cool
>>709607just tell us. it's anonymous. get it off your chest. it's an opportunity to learn.
Playoff baseball is on
ganna watch some spooky movies, get high and jerk off to big teats on e621
I’m tired of seeing this thread every Friday
>>719780country or city
i also just watched chainsaw man movie today
>>719782Thats clearly a bird on the left.
>>719907>and fallout 76.Based
>>719895>country or city?
I am actually reconsidering going, it only plays in shopping mall slop cinemas, dont want to spend entire time hearing some fat retard much popcorn next to me.
>>719982When I used to go to movie theaters I hardly ever had the problem of someone I wasn't with sitting annoyingly close to me. Worst time I had in a movie theater was watching Avengers:Endgame 3+ hours in a crowded theater watching a movie I had very little interest in plus I got a phone call midway through that I had to answer. I guess at least I left the house. Maybe you jyst live in a bigger area than me.
>>719990Its just the atmosphere of the place that sucks. I dont know, when you are watching something that is real movie, with artistic merit and such, it just doesnt belong in a shopping mall, in a cinema that puts insurance commercials before a screening.
Anyway, the movie was ok. First half didnt have much added value compared to just reading manga, but once the actions starts it does justify watching it on the big screen. I expected more though, the way some people on twitter whose opinion I respect were raving about it.
On the way home bough a can of Monster Ultra, a bag of chips and a pistachio ice cream, and will spend the rest of the night watching new civvie and Tamers videos on youtube.
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