/siberia/ - Off-topic

>>776926
No, because diagnosis would be a job for clinical psychologist, not therapist, different specialisation.

>>776925
I havent done them yet. Dont know when will, need to get my health insurance in order first, which require me getting a job.

>>776929
>diagnosis would be a job for clinical psychologist, not therapist, different specialisation.
Why does she need a diagnosis to help you with your problems? Lazy pettybooj bitch

>>776951
I am still going to attend therapy (hopefully, because I am poor as shit it needs to be first approved by this non-profit org), it was just a recommendation to help determine what exactly is wrong with me, and possibly put me on medication.

>>776955
Oh okay, sorry. It's just that I hate psychologists, since almost all of them are pettybooj and are superexpensive
When do you have your autism/adhd tests?

>>776929
What do you think the tests will tell you?

>>776956
Actually therapists arent very expensive here, they are just expensive for me. And from what I saw searching job boards, psychology is not a lucrative field in general (bad fucking luck to me as that is what I have a degree in).
>When do you have your autism/adhd tests?
I first need to get a job for health insurance. Hopefully sometime within next two months because I am running out of money.

>>776958
I dont think my autism is severe enough to warrant diagnosis. ADHD possibly.

>>776959
>Actually therapists arent very expensive here
m, how much do they cost? Here they cost around 50€ an hour, which is a lot
>I first need to get a job for health insurance. Hopefully sometime within next two months because I am running out of money.
Good luck

>>776986
>m, how much do they cost? Here they cost around 50€ an hour, which is a lot
That seems to be the bottom price here, average is around 70€. I live in a dump so my rent is relatively cheap, had I a full time job I could afford biweekly sessions without much issue, plus insurance covers part of the cost, if only up to 200€ a year.
>Good luck
Ran out unfortunately.

>>728681
>Pic 5
Ah the Butovo myths. Been a while since I heard that crap

Trying to become a 2d animator in my 30s (lol) but pretty sure the industry has completely collapsed in the west and will only get worse.

Also it will never pay as much as my cushy remote tech job.

>>777072
>Trying to become a 2d animator in my 30s (lol)
Don't make fun of yourself, you deserve self-respect. What you're doing takes courage give yourself credit.

i hate that i can't stop procrastinating: i haven't cleaned the dishes or the bathroom, nor showered, nor done the bedding (it's 2am), nor studied or done any homework in 5 days, nor cleaned my veneers in months, nor played any videogame nor seen any film/series because of the stupid internet, at least i managed to bookmark in a textfile hundreds of opened tabs today so eventually i can uninstall my browser… idk if anyone has struggled with this same thing here, not doing even things you would enjoy more than just browsing the internet

>>777072
Why are doing a career change to a less financially secure one?

>>777085
i hate tech and rather be a professional artist.

>>777088
Why not do portraits then?
And what’s with this hatred for tech jobs that are financially secure?

>>776922
My social worker told me that too but even with my doctors referal it would be like $5k

>>777099
5k?? I know medical stuffs expensive but what do you get out of it? Do I get like an autism card that can get can get me out of trouble or something?

>>777101
My doctor can't prescribe the adhd meds only a psychiatrist or something and I think you could get welfare or something if you have an official autism diagnosis in some places. Personally I just want to know what's wrong with me so I can work towards being a normal person

>>777093
Portrait artists are untalented faggots mostly. Also I’m not a painter/don’t care about rendering.

>>777099
What did you have to do to get your own social worker?

>>777151
Clinical social worker, its like a therapist but cheaper or something. She didn't really help.but she did tell me to ask my gp about adhd

>>777159
You can just call an office and schedule an appointment ezpz. A referral from a doctor may help? But I didnt get one from my doctor he just gave me a list of places to call and they didn't ask me for one.

>biggest job board in the country down for an entire day
I JUST WANT TO SEND SOME FUCKING CVS SO I WILL HAVE A PEACE OF MIND FOR COUPLE DAYS BEFORE HAVING TO DO THIS FUCKING HUMILIATION RITUAL AGAIN IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK

>>776955
update: therapy request denied

Today I got a haircut to look more presentable in hypothetical job interviews I wish to attend. Had long hair past shoulders, now they are neck length. Makes me look surprisingly cute, especially considering I am way past the age of cuteness. Unfortunately I am yet to shed the winter bulk, so it will be some time before I can attempt to present myself before a woman.

Tomorrow I am to spend entire day sending CVs, the only respite being cooking tasty lunch at noon. My current life cope plan is finding employment, even if it is just something part time, then sorting out health insurance, getting referral for clinical psychiatrist from general practitioner (and getting a lump I found checked), work on my portfolio (which I should have been doing for last two years, and yet here we are), find a real job I can make a career out of, move out of shithole apartment I live in (with little great luck I might even find sufficiently well paying job to do this after step 1).

>>777077
Are there parts of day when you have energy and motivation to be productive? Like for example during night, but it is now too late to do anything? Then try to do whatever prep you can fit in to make tasks easier for tomorrow. Write down a timetable for the next day, what to do and when. Start a day by getting small thing that take little time and effort done. Also make time for some pleasurable activity in the evening, so you have something to look forward to. That is very important. Look up some events you wish to attend, activities you wish to do in the future. Motivation is mostly about delayed gratification, find your gratification.

>>777160
If it is ok to ask, how old are you? I am deeply insecure about still not having my life in order at my age, so I wonder what situation other people are in.

>>777540
>now they are neck length. Makes me look surprisingly cute, especially considering I am way past the age of cuteness.
I think in general that length of haircut is generally cute, long hair is more "beautiful" rather than cute
>find a real job I can make a career out of
What would you like it to be?

>Are there parts of day when you have energy and motivation to be productive?
This is actually not the problem. I am not depressed and most days I am optimist about this being the day I finally become productive. And in the cases I do get going I can focus quite sometime
>Write down a timetable for the next day, what to do and when.
I have done dozens of these, and I still make them in class, since I am always very optimistic about the moment I get home
>Motivation is mostly about delayed gratification, find your gratification.
I actually like studying, I like studying in itself and the benefits. The thing is that I also procrastinate my hobbies/pleasure activities, like downloading new games, playing them and watching movies/series. These eastern I was proud I was able to watch 5 chapters of anime (Soul Eater) a day
>Then try to do whatever prep you can fit in to make tasks easier for tomorrow.
I will try this

The problem is more about starting the activity, not because I am tired and can't get up. But because I am very curious about what I am reading or because I want to see if I find something interesting (the times I come here or browser lobsters) or because I don't know how to close the browser or the computer

>third week of paid leave on, already feeling purposeless, missing work
Am I mentally raped

>>777540
I am 33

>>777581
If you genuinely liked your work and do nothing but doomscroll and procrastinate (and are spooked into thinking this is a waste of your time even tho you enjoy it) I can see it

My lunch. Boiled potatoes and soya chunks, then bake them with chopped onions and garlic. Salt, black and red pepper for spices. After its done mix in cooked broccoli and bean pods. Would be tastier with cauliflower instead, but it was too expensive. Before eating I add mustard.

>>777565
>What would you like it to be?
I dont know. If I could roll back I would attempt to get into academia. That door is closed now. Optimally something in non-profit or public sector, where I can use my psych degree. I want work where I can think, not just mindlessly follow procedure.
My procrastimation is destroying my life as well. My hope is that whatever is wrong with me is due to mental illness I can medicate away.

>>777582
Nice age. Same Jesus died.

>>777540
>If it is ok to ask, how old are you? I am deeply insecure about still not having my life in order at my age, so I wonder what situation other people are in.

You get more sympathetic respect for flaws/failure at your age than in your teens and twenties

>>777950
A 30 year old incel neet might as well be a leper, people treat you like a disease, where is this sympathy you talk about?

>>777936
kitchencels ass meal.

>>777991
I think you get more sympathy when you become a sex haver with a decent career and in a relationship because then you're seen as "normal" and deserving of sympathy. That is you'll be awarded sympathy when something unfortunate happens. You'll be seen as "bad" if you're an incel neet because you have neither attracted a partner nor attained employment two things that'll make you seem "normal".

>>777992
I oversalted it, but otherwise it is really good! Healthy too, 200g of green vegetable and 40g of protein per serving, at 500kcal.

>>777991
I said sympathetic respect.
Because of your age you’ll be given a lot more of it just because.
Young people only get condescending kind of sympathy for failures.

>>777995
That too. But more that older people are always given sympathy for their sadness while younger people are told to “keep on keeping on”

Saw a little kid get on the bus with a skateboard. He stood in the corner, leaned his skateboard against his legs, and reached into his pocket to pull out on of those small toy skateboards. Rad.

>>778105
and then he skateboarded a toy doll into a small bus

I did math and I have 6 months of frugal living before exhausting my entire savings. Which doesnt sound that bad you might say, however I need to keep at least 3 months worth of money otherwise I wont be able to move in case of need (which reduces my job opportunities), plus one month even if I get a job until I receive a paycheck, and lets add one more month for recruitment process until I actually start working. So I absolutely need to find something within a month, or we are entering the danger zone. Now I could get bottom of a barrel shit job, but those eat my entire free time and the working hours wont let me attend job interviews, and given my mental state, might actually kill me. On the bright side, relatively speaking, at least it motivates me try real hard to fix the situation.

I wanted to create a new thread about purging politics from my (no) life but TOR is not allowed to create new threads so I'm big sad now

on the good side of things, I don't have pics saved on this computer barring for some AI generated anime elves so I guess you guys got spared of that onen

>>777134
Then why are you wanting to go into animation?
Also, explain how portrait artists are untalented?
Do you know how much finesse it takes to draw photorealistic?

I have been up all night re-reading a social science research textbook and brushing on excel function because last week I send bunch of CVs and was anxious about them asking me something related when they call me. I got no calls. Not even from part time jobs I applied to. Fuck fuck fuck. Unemployment is like 3.5% in this region, there should be labour shortage, what the fuck.

>>779381
The claimed unemployment rate is total bullshit so don't be too hard on yourself. You will find something if you keep trying!

>>779381
If you've been unemployed for over 6 months I think you're not counted in the labor force anymore. At least in the United States.

>>779383
Last time I was job hunting I had to delete higher education from my CV and instead make something up to fill the gap to land a dead-end customer support position, because otherwise I am too overeducated to get hired for low-skill jobs but underexperienced for those appropriate to my degree. I cant do this again, I just want to retain a little bit of dignity.

>>779390
I am not American. There is no commiseration to be found here, all of my peers seem to do fine, I am the failure.

>>779398
Do whatever you have to in order to get a job, fuck dignity, will that keep your belly full? I put "mixed white and Asian" on my applications because I'm 1/4 Iranian even though I look white as fuck, you gotta do what you gotta do.

>>779400
Because if I get another job with no relation whatsoever to field I wish to be in, its over, I am never going to be able to get out of menial labour, nobody will hire me, my education will effectively be outdated, all the skills forgotten. Like I am not picky, I dont care about wage, I am willing to relocate (although considering I currently live in place with most favourable job market in the country its unlikely it would be an improvement), but I just need something that I can put in my CV to help me get something semi-decent in the future.
I am terrified of meeting anyone from my childhood or school, and they asking me what I do. I have only one friend, and I havent spoke to her in a year because I dont feel worthy given how much of a loser I am.

>>779407
of course you want to work in your field but any job is better than no job. it will look better on your cv too.

>>779408
In my field isnt even requirement I have, just so it has some transferable skills. Just so having fucking higher education is considered a plus rather than guaranteed CV in a trash.
I already made a fake CV, looked up temp agencies. If nothing else I would like some part time warehouse work or something similar, something where I wont have to interact with people, wont be exposed to their gaze.