Women become more and more attractive the more suicidal I become. I think it's my instincts nudging me to knock a young lady up before roping myself.
More recently I have been wondering if it hadn't been better if I had just found somebody and started a household when I was younger. Maybe having a couple children. It might've been better to do that in your 20s before you become too bitter and beaten down by life. But then I realize how worse I was back then and it would have probably turned bad and acrimonious and if children were in the picture then for the worse. I don't particularly like this world and don't want to put anyone else through it but I still get that urge to breed.