Everything is such a weird awful distant numbness.
I need emotional attachment but can’t stand being in the same room as someone else.
I need to fix all the problems I constantly see in the world but don’t even feel motivated enough to join my (I think defunct?) DSA.
I need to find a long term job with healthcare and a living wage but I can barely get up the strength to do my part time manual labor shift everyday.
I need to vent and get this dumb shit out but for some reason I literally cannot do this spoken out loud to a therapist.
Everything in my mind feels contradictory everything I think I know feels fake and the MDD is hitting so badly right now my skull feels like it’s being sucked inward
I can’t even get the courage to worry my parents or any of the other 3 people who care about me at all and I would much rather cut off contact with them for weeks to months than have to explain to them why I don’t function right.
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>>805009Sorry anon. That sounds shitty. Have you tried antidepressants?