/siberia/ - Off-topic

arabs and jews are plotting together against china

I want to fuck around but any fucking around might lead to life ruining amounts of finding out and I can barely cope with this fact. I have a pervasive feeling that everyone hates me and would want me dead if they knew enough about me and that i am constanly in a subjugated position due to my physical size and not bing "normal enough". I an literally living on mercy from society and have no reaal power and this pisses me off to no end. I lowkirkenuinely want to staart a cryptocult with likeminded people so we have safety in numbers but im afraid that if im not secretive enough with it the wrath of the state and society will descend upon me even though i want to do nothjng illegal. The moralfaggotry and intolerance of NormalPeople(TM) is so repulsive and enraging i genuinely hope for societal collapse just o they can sufferb aat the hands of their own animalistic retard nature and while I too will die in such an environment, it will be worth the suffering of the moralfags. I netanyahuenuenly feel like starting to crimemaxx and violencemaxx and sufferingmaxx to farm experience and assert power. 16 months in the schizohole is not cutting it I should have been in regular prison for 3 years so I can get beaten up 17 times so that I can at least feel it was worth it and the forensiKKK psyKKKiatrists are gigafaggots for not having the balls to do it.

>Inb4 you wont do shit
I know, and that infuriates me to no end.