Sorry for venting and not giving more context guys, i fell asleep right after making this post.
>>820948I cannot smoke weed until i somehow make my life less miserable. Weed will only numb down the feelings, but the cause of those feelings will stay and if i ever run out of weed (which will probably happen) i will pay a much higher price than what i am paying right now. Life always comes to collect, and im not interested in paying more.
Also, i do exercise and eat healthy. Back when i was in school i was butthurt about my relatives snatky comments on my body lacking masculinity and volume. Then, in college i was called ugly multiple times, that is when i started maximising my face aswell, even had a surgery and planning to get a new one this december. At this point i'm practically addicted to gym, diet and supplements.
>>820996No, but in 2025 i was diagnosed with schizophrenia