I can no longer take this, my whole life i was exluded, bullied and ridiculed. In kimdergarten and pre-school i was treated unfairly by teachers and other kids saw this as an opportunity to mess with me. In school i was completely alone and constantly bullied and then when i tried to fight back every adult would punish me for it. In college no one would talk to me, often say offensive stuff and take photos of me for amusement and the unfair treatment from proffesors continued. Now at my job, no matter how timid and usualy silent i try to be it doesn't save me from being a butt of emasculating jokes, constant verbal abuse and overall disrespect. Today i recieved a message from my boss in which he scolded me for being rude to someone from a higher position (which didn't happen and he knows for a fact that the woman which made the complaint just hates my guts) saying that he would fire me if i let it happen again.
This cut really deep this time.
Coming to realisation that not even once in my life no one ever defended me or atleast took my side really hurt. Not even my family or supposed friends which i never really had.
Now realising that this will probably never end and i will keep getting abused, i don't feel like living anymore.
What do you even do in this situation?