Am I retarded for "brainwashing myself" into wanting to live very less years? I don't mean consuming gooning content, but rather "scientific and geopolitic" content eg; climate refugee data, incoming macroeconomic-global swayings, astronomical destructive events (eg; solar flare, etc)-and so on, etc
the counterpart is making my own life feel extremely brisk by thinking of Deep Time; cosmological, geological, Epochs of the Earth, Hominid evolution timeline, etc.
>post youtube channels, books, studies, Papers, etc which led credibility to the "next 50 years will SUCK" hypothesis