>>831836>my family has this habit of not just being mean but segregating and blaming the easiest target in the familybut my mom taught me to never point my anger towards the people i love
her behaviour contradicts her words. Why do you think that is? if she teaches you not to be angry at people you love then that means she can lash out at you at will but you can't do anything to her because you've been taught you cant, so she can do what she wants.
Instead of developing a maladaptive habit and lashing out to internet randoms you need to make peace with the fact that your mom taught you bullshit to abuse you more efficiently.