>>4762You are? Well hello again. I'm the prescriptive brother from back up the thread.
You're gonna think this is weird but I honestly winced when you posted about squatting movements and have honestly got flashbacks about it many times since you posted it. It's like someone saying "I've always hated breathing deeply. Just me things. Shallow rapid breathing has always been more comfy to me".
Really good to hear that your doing some kind of squatting movement. One of the most reliable indicators of systemic health and longevity is squatting strength. I don't mean gym strength. I mean something more functional, like the ability to stand from a crosslegged position without using your hands at all. Air-squatting through the day, like when cooking or something, is one of the most important things sedentary people can do.
Reality time. You're on a leftist website because your mind and outlook are somewhere near the right place. That's quite rare in the current moment. You're no good to us with those patterns of behavior. If you think you have any commitment to a left ideology, or to justice for people outside the imperial core, you're gonna have to return to regular hours.
A large component of why people get depressed is their behaviors. Lack of sunlight, Irregular routines and bad diet are causes of depression, not a badge of honor.
If you know that your behaviors lead to depression, you are choosing to be depressed.
Seeing daylight for a hour a day is not optional.
Your current routine is killing you slowly and making you stupid. Here's a new one:
1. Go to bed at 8pm. Bring a laptop or weed or a pill, or whatever you need to get to sleep.
2. Choose a podcast and go for a 40 minute walk at noon the next day. You had a good night's sleep so there is no excuse not to go out.
3. Whatever you do all night, now do it during the day.
That's the routine. It's nothing. Any reason not to do this is cope. Maybe you can't accept this. Follow this routine for six weeks and your mind will clear, your energy will improve, you'll become more sociable, and hopefully you'll see a path to effective IRL political participation.
More importantly, 40 mins cardio daily will also improve your circulation, reduce water retention and bring you closer to slender calves + thighs too.