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There’s so many things that seemingly make it impossible for me to start hrt.

I have an extreme phobia of needles. It’s genuinely ruining my life. I know that there’s other forms of hrt that aren’t injections, but either way I would still need to use a needle on myself to do blood tests.

And then there’s the effects hrt has on the genitals. I would love every effect of hrt if it wasn’t for the effects it has on genitalia. I know using it will prevent atrophy, but it still won’t prevent my balls from shriveling up and the dck from shrinking. I don’t have bottom dysphoria and my genitals are one of the few parts of my body that I don’t actively hate.

And lastly, I’m afraid I’ll miss out on the experiwnce of being a gay guy. I’ve never been in a relationship as a man, but mlm relationships seem to be much more loving and deeper than straight relationships are. I’m scared I’ll never experience true love with a straight man if I transitioned to being a woman. (Especially since many men who want to date trans women are just chasers)

All of this shit just piles up to make me feel too much fear and anxiety to start hrt. I don’t know what to do
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>>4149
when I was 18 I was also like you anon, I had spent a good 4 years slowly accepting it while also taking less and less care of myself as I grew older. at some point, partially due to someone around me starting, partially because I wanted to die so bad I got it to a fuck it stage.
one day I ordered E gel from a DIY seller since then I started face laser, I got more into my local trans community, I found better hrt gel sources within my country, started having a social life with those people and eventually switched to injections. since then I've moved away from that hellish place, I got a job, started a new social life as a woman, changed my documents, bought a house and things are by no means perfect but I am much happier than I was when I was drinking my guts away because I hated my life so much. doing it, even if out of spite was the right choice, even if I made mistakes alone the way, even if I started uncovering other problems that needed addressing, even if some experiences still hurt.
if you can't do it out of fear, do it out of spite.

>>4394
Thank you, but tbh I’m not even sure I’ve even fully come to a realization since I frequently second guess my trans ness and sometimes just wish to be a femboy.

I have acrually ordered hrt recently sometime after I made this thread. But I feel like I’m probably gonna pussy out when it actually arrives. Even when it arrives and if do go through with it, then it’s only a matter of time before I need to get blood tests or injections and I’ll never be able to do those. I can’t just spite my way through a needle

Without blood tests and without being able to eventually switch to injections, I’m probably gonna end up a conetitted hon with blood clots. It’s over for me

>>4284
I've been DIY for 5 years without a single blood test, heard a litany of things from various people about how that's bad or whatever but I've not had any problems and I'm very happy with my transition. I've definitely never heard of any DIYer doing their own blood test. Depending on your location you can likely get blood tests done at an actual clinic for a fee, though that doesn't get rid of your fear of needles. Personally I'd recommend you just stop being a pussy over some thin strips of metal because you're really hamstringing yourself by avoiding it completely. If you inject properly and actually clean the injection site and use proper dosages you aren't going to turn out a "hon", and quite frankly even if you do pussy out and wind up going the route of pills you'll be just fine. The only reason I do injections is because pills are far, far, far more expensive to do and maintain correct doses (actually, I believe it's practically impossible to maintain in the same way injections work, but I haven't seen anything in the literature indicating that this has a serious effect, otherwise we wouldn't be literally prescribing shitty little 2mg estrofem pills to women going through menopause.)

Anyways, quit being a pussy.

>>4455
Why are you such a dick? I don’t just have a fear of needles, it’s a full blown phobia that I cannot control. I can’t just fucking get over it. I’ve tried everything my therapist told me to try to get over it and nothing worked.

Of course you had no problems with your transition because you did injections, which are more precise than pills. I can’t do that so I’m fucked. It was stupid of me to ever think I could have been a woman in the first place and I plan to throw out my hrt when it arrives and then end my life once I move out of my parents house

>>4461
Like I already said pills are just fine. YMMV but if you're sitting here spiraling like shit already hit the fan over a leftypol post then yeah, you're going absolutely nowhere. I'm a dick because you need to gyst instead of sitting on leftypol bedrotting and bemoaning your situation on your iPhone. If you wanted a hugbox with a bunch of people saying "noooo oomfie its gonna be okay" then maybe you should join a Discord server and not make a post here expecting everyone to be all goodie little two-shoes nice to you. You not taking or taking your estrogen is a decision, and it's entirely up to you. Just take pills if you're that damn scared of needles, like I already said, it's not that big of a deal and levels when taking pills properly aren't that far off from injections. I know plenty of trans girls that've taken pills for years and they turned out absolutely fine. Taking estrogen at all is better than no estrogen and probably better than killing yourself too.



 

My mom told me that I could go to a conversion therapist or she'd leave me and my dad (who also isn't supportive). I accepted because I don't want to get on the bad side of my entire family. Anyways, do any of you have any tips for getting through conversion therapy?
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Even more pro gamer move: accuse them of molesting you.

>>4403
>1) run away
Not really viable in my current situation, sadly.
>Say that your parents were lying about you being queer
I'm probably gonna do something like this and go "Oh, I was just confused and my parents pushed me with their questioning"
>>4405
>I want a bounce mouse
It looks cute

Are you living in AmeriKKKa? You should try going to the authorities and sue the conversion therapy people or your parents, or join a socialist org and run away into the hills.

tell your dad to get his woman under control
out-conservative them.

>>4402
Go to it. Don´t take it that seriously. I believe modern day conversion therapy is basically just "talk therapy."

Don´t "run from your home," wait until you go to college and PLEASE study something that is "useful" in order for you to achieve independence.

Do this unless you think that going to a "anarchist commune" is actually "good". You are going to be a lumpen your whole life if you decide to take that path.



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Has anyone else noticed when some people call for the abolition of gender (which is a position I sympathise with even though it is ultra-leftist to expect society to do away with it right now) just seem to be asking for all femininity to be erased? Like when people, and I'm assuming its mostly men trans or cis, say that we need to stop having gender, they also say long hair and pretty clothes need to be banned, and everyone should just be strong and masculine. It feels not many people are expecting gender abolition to cause everyone to become feminine. Idk its interesting hearing about this. I'm reminded of the anime Simoune where the baddies are all transmasc industrialists (I did support them when I watched it because they were historically progressive industrialists). That's basically a vision of gender abolition actually being women abolition. When you talk to lots of people you will hear this. Just ask King Lear what he thinks.
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>>3672
>government
?

>>3673
yeah the government. communism is when the government does stuff.

>>3671
Very good, you may have my used toothbrush and two potatoes on sundays

>>1968
I'll try to be charitable to op by sharing my perspective on the subject matter.
I call myself agender and I consider myself a gender abolitionist, I am tired of explaining reducing my gender identity to cis people to a mere she/her woman.
I hated masculinity enough to transition out of it but I simultaneously do not identify with a lot of aspects of femininity. for instance I present as a blob of gender, I lean fem but I work a stereotypically masculine physical job, I won't let go of my masculine or feminine interests and I am not afraid of my masculine upbringing.
I am a gender abolitionist because I think the expectations put upon women by our male dominated capitalist society are debilitating to our society, just as I believe the idealistic dude bro toxic masculinity are debilitating to our society.
I see people as a reflection of their personality more so than I put people in a box over the other.
I believe there is nothing wrong with identifying with femininity, some people may call you a petty bourgeois revisionist for upholding the gendered expectations of the capitalist but I believe in this fucked life you should be able to enjoy what makes you happy, I wish I was able to fully live out my gender identity in the ways you are but unfortunately I have to resort only being perceived correctly by my queer peers who are willing to listen.

>>1968
Literally what the fuck are you talking about, who says this? Even the people in this thread taking this position are actually taking tangentially adjacent positions that aren't actually anything that come close to that.



 

Greetings, I am a scientist, a chemist to be more precise. It has been through years of hard work, countless experiments, and sleepless nights that I have stumbled upon something… extraordinary.
It all started with my work on hormone replacement therapy (HRT). I was tasked with developing more efficient, less invasive treatments for people transitioning. As a chemist, I was fascinated by the complex interactions of hormones in the human body. I saw the nuances and how each chemical change could impact both the mind and body. But even as I created better formulas, I found myself growing increasingly frustrated. There had to be something beyond the traditional treatments, something deeper, something that could change the very foundation of what it meant to be.
It was during an experiment aimed at optimizing synthetic estrogen levels that I discovered something I hadn’t expected - a compound, one that reacted far more potently than any hormone I’d ever studied. At first, I thought it was just an anomaly, an accident of molecular interference. But when I ran the tests again, the results were unmistakable: this substance didn’t just alter the body, it seemed to reach deeper into the psyche, into the very essence of identity itself.
I called it Jenkem, named after my ex Jenkane, it was a mind-numbingly awesome drug that has very heavy effects all due to the synthesizing process which involves fermenting feces and urine. Yes, fermenting, for you see Jenkem is the gas produced that can be collected and inhaled, it is not the urine and feces themselves. It can be so potent it would not only turn you into a man or a woman but also into a jolly african-american. What struck me most was how Jenkem interacted with the brain. It wasn’t just physical - it was psychological, emotional, even intellectual. The people I tested it on reported an overwhelming sense of clarity, a sudden and intense understanding of who they were and what they wanted to become. It wasn’t just a shift in appearance or gender identity - it was a total recalibration of the self. I noticed it first in the volunteers - small things at first. A twitch in their eyes, a strange hum in their voices, an odd shift in the way they spoke. They began to describe experiences that didn’t make sense, impossible things. One volunteer claimed to have “seen the true form” of her body, a form “beyond flesh.” Another started drawing strange symbols, spiraling patterns that had no place in the worlPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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wow



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We are using our resources as a collective to help a trans woman (and collective member!) move out of dipshit bumfuck Arkansas to New Jersey right out side of Phillie.

The collective is also using this to see how viable actual fundraising could be for building and doing things to support 'the real movement'.

Donate here:
https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-trixie-move-to-safety-in-philadelphia



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>presents as feminine, considered valid
>presents as masculine, considered valid
>cis women accepts them as "one of their own"
>cis men barely accept them but that's still a given
>usually supported by parents to the extent where most of them get a mastectomy while underaged
>if detransitioning, seen as a poor widdle victim instead of a disgusting freak that got what it deserved
>first for invitations for sex parties because two-holed bottom
>has the worst track record for sex shit [zoophilia, pedophilia] but always seen as innocent
>trans women over the age of 27 will die to defend the ego and honour of the dood
when will /lgbt/ take the ftm pill and kill themselves hoping they can be reborn as a little dood?(USER WAS WARNED FOR THIS POST)
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go back to 4chan

boo hoo im right

<trans women over the age of 27 will die to defend the ego and honour of the dood
is so specific it made me laugh

>>4377
yeah, because it just keeps happening

cringe



 

I have no desire to claim or identify with 'womanhood' so much as i absolutely reject 'manhood'. i do like presenting femme, i had an orchiectomy; but i feel like i have a lot of trouble relating to mainstream trans politics being so invested in being 'valid' or belonging to some specific identity, label, or class. I get frustrated when well-meaning allies lean really hard on 'oh but you are a girl', or go out of their way to correct other people about my pronouns/gender. Frankly i think it's a detriment to things like reproductive healthcare rights and just general sexism and gender liberation to go all in on 'trans women are women!'; i'm not saying they're /not/ but, there are differences of experience and there's a lot of nuance and edge-case discourse to be had.

idunno just curious if anybody relates to gender similarly.
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>>4240
I honestly don't know what I want, and dont know if I ever will know. I was born just to always be unhappy and miserable no matter what.

>>4172
Then you are just nonbinary, its not a label it just means you don't fit into either. You don't need to discredit others to accept yourself.

By the way what is the source of the image?

>>4216
necrobumping to say that most things look difficult until you start doing them. it's like the opposite of dunning-kruger, you know so much about something that you end up worrying more than you should

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>>4257
But like…I cant just suddenly start being non-binary. Its not like i can just press a button to instantly become non-binary. Im still the same disgusting male I was five seconds ago. I dont even know that much about being non-binary so I dont think its a reverse dunning-kruger situation

>>4297
Maybe you can't think of yourself as anything different from a man from a pure aesthetic lens, but is gender not an inherently aspirational trait? Your appearance is not the sole determiner of gender when there's also (I'm assuming) your behavior and introspection of your own gender which is already verifiably different from cis men.

As for the whole not-non-binary thing, you might not call yourself "nonbinary" with the connotations that it has, but seeing as how your gender cannot be easily explained within binary parameters, there's kind of no other way to describe you.

I wouldn't use this exact term on the regular, but "AMAB with non-masculine aspirations" shouldn't be that hard for us to grasp. There's quite a few people that can only truly define out gender, which in and of itself would still inform your gender. Any deeper, and there's muddiness to be expected.



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Hello Lesbian Stalinists, Gay Trotskyists, Trans-Anarchists and Bi-Maoists, I hope you're doing well !
I wanted to know what is your opinion on the so-called 'Queen of Breadtube' KKKontraPointSS?
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>>3279
says the lib

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>>3240
she doesnt have a problem with what is going on
>>3279
>quintessential radlib
means evil person

smh

shame on that bitch and shame everyone who yassqueened her to glory



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It feels like there are two realities for trans people. Some people just pass effortlessly somehow, and then other people can't pass no matter how they try unless it is with a very specific camera angle and lighting.

What do you think? Does anyone here pass? Not saying you have to pass to be properly trans but also I think people saying they are fine with not passing are just coping. It just feels so frustrating seeing these people who just pass effortlessly and then I'm spending years to get nowhere with voice training and my hands are too shaky to do makeup.
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>>4258
>Mass murder is good actually.
I don't see how that factors into your anti-euthanasia views, but based and left-hand pilled. You should form a dionysian marxist coven.

>>4259
It's only good when my side is doing it. Anyway I wish I could get into the whole mysticalism stuff but I am kind of terminally materialist, I crave to be a magical witch but I can't convince myself any of that stuff is real. Like this is absolutely a good thing but I just can't quite slip off the deep end. I think its just because my experience with life is so wierd anyway. When I close my eyes I see very weird things and I lucid dream almost every night. That all not being real kind of taught me not to hope for things, not to pine for things and just sit daydreaming all the time, but to actually do them. And that also gives me the inspiration for writing (and hopefully like making games or animation if I can ever get skilled enough to do that).

Sorry for blogpoasting >.<

>>4260
Most Crowleyites see themselves as materialist, as they're very results oriented. Personally i would say those things are absolutely real in the marxian sense, because they affect yourself directly, others indirectly and ultimately material reality without requiring the same type of attention as non-magickal practice. The only thing not to do is adopt a magical worldview, using something you made yourself believe for a ritual to reason about material reality. That advice may ring kind of hollow though, as i've only had mild successes with drafting sigils, inducing trances and kind of making myself feel better while on-off practicing for some years :-)

>>4258
You dont pass because you are an idealist.

>>4251
>let's be real. this conversation wouldn't happen without transphobia.
Even in a perfectly tolerant world I would still have crippling dysphoria from not passing.



 

Why can’t I relate to other trans people? I just can’t relate to the level of comfort and pride and self-love many of them have. It genuinely seems like so many of them don’t have the part of the brain that makes them cringe. They’re just so unfiltered and unapologetic, I just can’t relate at all, I constantly feel like a gross disgusting excuse for a woman and feel scared interacting with the world as one. I don’t know why I cling so strongly onto this meekness, maybe it’s misogyny, I just associate being boisterous and loud with being masculine. I can’t relate to how willing they are to make cringy niche trans memes to their cis friends. I just am so anxious to discuss transness in any open forum where I know cis people might see it. I admit I still have this kind of backwards view that being trans is something shameful and it would be better to stealth if possible. Idk what to do, I want this level of comraderie other trans people have but being in trans spaces, especially trans women spaces just makes me cringe, it either feels like it’s full of very bro-ish sorts of trans women who are unapologetically masculine, or trans women who feel sort of overly preformatively feminine. I genuinely just can’t relate to most of trans culture right now.
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>>4159
>>4160
Cringe is downstream of narcissism because cringe is the feeling of disgust when your self-image is threatened. People who relate to the world through the narcissistic mode of self-image are much more susceptible to feeling the 'cringe' and obsessing over their self-image so as to not evoke that feeling. The link between self-image and narcissism is one of the most basic concepts in psychoanalysis.

>>4204
Everyone has a self-image and the instinct to preserve it. I guess everybody must be a narcissist then lmao.

Just because self-image is a big part of narcissism doesnt mean that the concept of self-image is inherently linked to narcissism. You clearly get all of your psychology info from social media.

>>4209
Yes, Lacan did claim all Ego is Narcissism.

>>4210
>Lacan said it so its a fact!
Lacan isn't the king of psychology. Most of the shit he said has been discredited and criticized by many

>>4209
Everyone is capable of narcisstic relation, and to some extent everyone is capable of going beyond it too. You are treating narcissist like it's an insult rather than a fact of human psychology.



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