for context: i'm a boymoder, i've been on diy for a while now with great results so far. voice is my biggest source of dysphoria but i'm doing what i can to work on it. i pass to strangers, my voice passes depending on how i'm feeling. i'm not out to anyone though.
whereever i go, i feel strange. i've never talked to anyone about anything trans related. i've just quietly observed how people treat me, treat eachother and how they talk behind eachothers backs. there isn't a single person i've meet that's been understanding
and honest.
people are either ignorant / straight up hateful or they will lie about everything. every so-called "ally" only sexualizes and fetishizes trans people.
>the few trans people i've met only ever sexualize themselves>women will treat me like a fag (and sexualize me)>specifically young lib / LGB women expect me to somehow like that and will have no problem outing me in front of random strangers, talk about how my appearance has changed since they've first met me, ask me at my workplace wether or not i am trans (in front of literally everybody…)>old people will do their best to pretend i'm normal and just not even acknowledge the fact i have giant boobs (which is honestly sometimes preferable to the young women i've mentioned before, except when they loudly scream SIR NOTSODEADNAME a trillion times and out me to everyone)>young men honestly seem the most welcoming, they just treat me like a normal human being (i only ever want to have real social interactions with men for that very reason), but of course you'll notice their porn-induced brain damage pretty quick.not even the people offering trans care have a single clue.
i got my blood drawn a while ago at a place a lot of diying transhumanists go to get their labs. i could literally hear the staff make fun of me in another room while i was waiting.
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