Weed and psychedelics don't do anything in low doses and moderate to high doses give me existential anxiety, like I straight up can't stop thinking about dying and not existing in 30-40 years. It's weird because otherwise I'm chill about it. Alcohol is the only thing that takes away the harsh edge of life and makes everything fuzzy and warm, but I can't get over how horrible it is for every part of the body: liver disease, distracting your immune system, bowel cancer, brain shrinkage, disrupting protein synthesis. I think min-maxing video games ruined my fucking brain; every beer I have is like "damn I coulda got a 3 plate bench by now if I didn't drink". My mind won't let me let go and just enjoy the experience of any mind altering substance, but being sober fucking sucks. Why did humans evolve to hate the default state of the brain so much?>>31104
I live in WA and have never heard this term, I thought "za" was east-coast slang for pizza.