maybe my condoms were shit but I've tried a few brands and they all have sucked. i'd rather just not have sex if I have to use a condom tbh
There's something kinda metal as fuck about being a late in life virgin, maybe I'm developing a humiliation fetish but it's almost awesome being so wholly physically, mentally and spiritually unattractive your entire sexual experiences are entirely compromised of pining over pixel women who don't *really* exist and who would never have the time of day for you, ever
Just completely and utterly impotent, failing miserably at a biological imperative the vast majority of the species stumbles into by accident
Bereft of intimacy and touch, the world is a shriekingly cold place. The light in his or her eyes is not for you, roam on the darkened streets, couples walking on the well lit avenues, away from your quasimodo ass
A chronicle of exile, starting with the first time your head was dashed into the mud. The fascists were right: the weak do fear the strong, and you know your place. Right now entire constellations of nerve endings are being lit up in your crush by her significant other. You are an insignificant other. So insignificant that reproductive organs fall into dysfunction, the heart becomes obdurate and the possibilities shrink to the size of your self esteem, like a pea under a heat lamp.
Fleshy slaps echo out in the corridors of primal dreamhouses, the unused mental circuitry of romance lying dead like industry.
No love today or tomorrow. Caresses only for those who do not have the spirit of caress, but the action.
I'm not healthy. Humans require life long social support and encouragement throughout the development process - I have received none. The internal contradictions of life under late stage capitalism have become unbearable. Since I was a child I have longed for a space between life and death. Something better than the void that awaits us all, but no worse than the sin and toil of this mortal coil.
The kingdom of Heaven remains unseen by all those who have wished to see it. Perhaps the only peace is on top of a cooling board.