Hello again /siberia/. I hope everyone is doing well - from those who can manage to remember me, to normal people who do not. I am the "furry anon", a namefag from early 2023 who had a really retarded go with my local furry community. I am ashamed to announce to everyone that I have still not killed myself and am now 20 years old - despite my vocal plans to do so, and the reality that I am in constant emotional pain knowing that I am now past the hump of youth and am now slowly drifting into obscurity.
I am still not okay. I am still suffering.
For the months in my absence hitherto, which if I recall the last time I openly had a tie to the "furry anon" name was back in December 2023, I did my best to change and improve as a person. I held down a job for a few months, landscaping. I was fired for being a faggot, and am still within an open inquiry from my local human rights commission. I have also quit my nicotine addiction. I am currently dating someone [I think]. I have, for all intents and purposes, changed for the better at least on the outside - but the inside remains sullen by hunger.
I don't want to argue, I don't care to argue. Maybe (You) personally should for the sake of the board not dying out, but I don't care either way about the act of having to defend my position here - I will never be okay at this rate. I will never "heal" from the reality that I have found the worst of humanity, and they not only exist - but they literally rejected me. I have been rejected by a social club of pedophiles and zoophiles, unlovable freaks that do nothing but bring harm see me as undeserving of their companionship. Do you know how fucking much that hurts?
This isn't to mention the jealousy aspect - a perfectly fair emotion, shitted upon by the antisocial. I am jealous that I was not an underaged whore amongst them. This isn't even weird if you realize that being an underageb& fuckbuddy of a furry garuntees you a lifestyle of debauchery, of drinking, of drugs, nonstop sex, thousands of dollars worth of clothing, sex toys, hard cash given as gifts, like - it's a one-way ticket for a prole to live the bourgeoisie lifestyle before even hitting 18.
I MISSED OUT ON THAT, FOREVER. AND I AM NEVER GOING TO BE A PEDOPHILE, SO WHY TREAT THESE ANIMALS AS HUMAN?I thought I was healing until Saturday night. My partner shown me a video of two guys fucking around in fursuits [like, literally
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