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Mexico
Libtard
Insomniac. Anyone can come here read me a bedtime story?

Should I join a literal CULT, but with the explicit -yet secret, concealed- goal of being forever free from interacting with w*m*n, and only in the company ,and vicinity, of virgin\ chaste-celibate men? Possible options:
>palmar de troya\iglesia palmariana (pseudo catholic)
>Pia Union de san pablo apostol (pseudo catholic)
>Ephraimite monastery network in Arizona (orthodox, disputed if schismatic or not)
I KNOW that the lay members are supposed to have s*x for children (even so; only once a month until she's pregnant, because of she was pregnant and they had s*x, it's Illicit s*x…no s*x during pregnancy ,menopause etc, either) but I will be joining the ORDER part…which is celibate for life\until Death!!
also regarding, linked to, this chan: What would be the MOST sausage-party\ vagina-drying leftists political group? white upper-class suburb guys ,Trotskyist Critical Theorists? whom congregate in over-prized "alt cafes" to voice support for Nepalese guerrillas? or to nitpick the Afghanistan Communist Party (Maoist)'s bulletins?

>I went to economics school!
And it's just regurgitating platitudes like "Imagine you have 2 cows" and learning basic shit like "Profit is revenue minus cost"

Meme of a field nowadays.

I hate waking up in America knowing metzitzah b'peh is legal.

>"And a toast, for Anonymous!"
How do you react?

Will I be able to masturbate under kommunizmus or will the State Police slice my dick off for bourgeois degeneracy

europeans feel icky when a WASP american comes back there on vacation and larps about his italian heritage or his irish lineage, or decending from a clan of scotsmen/ polish hussars, do africans feel the same about african-americans claiming any heritage back? i'm asking because i noticed this happening to american whites in europe, and asian american in asia at the same time when they go to their "place of origin" the locals regard them as no longer one of them

ẅhy did we have to be born in the last remaining years of humanity, everything sucks now💔
i walk around at night and the decaying landscape of the city is a reminder not only of our failure as a species but also of a now forgotten time when people tried and believed a better world could exist. and even though i hate the world we live in i still felt incredibly depressed seeing people walk around, living their lives, and seeing the schools and houses, and the movement of the cars and buses, and knowing that in a few decades all of that will be gone. for better or for worse this was the world i was raised in and for that moment i accepted that that world was going to end, it was a very sad realization, i cried when i got back home.

How come I don't feel empty and instead feel content when I live my life despite all that's gone wrong in it? I don't think of the future that much. I just live by the day, although I do have goals. People say things that being lazy makes you feel terrible, but to me I just feel normal. I feel active also, just active in the wrong places and putting focus on the wrong aspects of my life. I've noticed that often times I don't think from logic but instead think from emotions, like my inner monologue just stops and sometimes I do things based on impulse rather than using my head. Maybe this is less contentment and more numbness.

I think the thing is is that I don't really aspire for conventional success in life. I do it out of necessity but don't really see it as a virtue in and of itself. I also don't value hard work that much besides as a means to an end. Probably the communist stuff in my brain speaking, although many communists value hard work. I just would prefer it if everything was based on socialist mindset of meeting people's needs efficiently rather than overly valuing hard work.

It's also the moment stuff. If I don't think outside of the moment that much, I just feel relaxed and at ease and comfortable. But when I do, that disappears. I think my greatest strength in this circumstance would be the lack of activity in my brain sometimes and mental numbness. People emphasize these days non traditional notions of strength but I feel that I'm not so certain this is a sign of resilience, as it is having a toxic affect on my future, even if it keeps me satisfied in the present. But the future feels like nothing. It's not happened yet, so I don't feel worried about it because it's abstract. This is kinda idiotic lizard brain thinking.

Eventually, something's going to change. But I feel being so content and normal feeling like this isn't generating enough motivation to actually do anything. I probably have to do something eventually. I'll try to motivate myself and get off my ass and finally do something about my weight and my future.