>>560065Nothing on the other side is what I want silly! I want it be black, and I am taking a gamble that it is, I am giving my friends a couple of thousand euros for their sake. Long story short I can't seek help, it will be years before I am able to get topiramax (mood stabilisers) for borderline. Trust me anon, I've been down the road, there is nothing there, what my family did to me will haunt me for ever, so I look forward to blackness. Please don't worry, its okay. I am happy and mentally sound enough to know that this is the sound choice, plus its not untill I turn 27, I have a few months. I will still be here shitposting. If you want to help me, take care of yourself first, I am going to die, this is okay!
>>560066You too, this isn't a pity party for one suicidal anon. Take care of yourself first! I'm a big boy I know what I am doing and I know that its for the best, my friends get some money, I get peace and eternally oblivion and no one will ever lay their hands on me again! This is good, I promise you!