Honestly with all due respect I think you have the situation all wrong. I know its hard to believe, but especially after leaving the groups, and seeing the other 18 year old - who, once again, compared to me physically is just downright abysmal - has gotten me over the whole thing with him.
Now, as for the current problem, I just feel like there's a looming malice towards me that this general group holds. Its entirely percieved, yes, and I may just be imagining it, but I really can feel it. It should be my current objective to just get over that.
As for potential abuse, I'm actually sorely disappointed how little people are going for me. I'm an attractive, young, broke twink. You'd expect me to have to deal with a lorry load of potential third-rate suitors, but alas, nobody cares for me. The working theory is that most people care more for their inner circle within the group, an inner circle I'm not apart of. Honestly, it's a problem because I am now firmly in between the lines of that inner circle and not being involved at all, leading to an awkward relationship. Honestly I'm thinking about entirely leaving the group after I go to the orgy and forgetting about them entirely.