How do I cope? I used to be super hot to women from 9th-10th grade. After that puberty changed my face or something and I was forever invisible afterwards. Its been 15 yrs since then and Im still not over this shit, it gives me anxiety everytime i think about how the only opportunities i had were wasted then because I was too innocent to do anything with the girls then. This feels horrible Im like an adult now but still not over it, I feel like an idiot for even feeling this way, but damn.
I remember it vividly still, it was like a whole another world. Id go over to my friends house and his sister and friends would giggle and try to talk to me. Id go to malls and random girls would purposely try bumping into me. Girls would follow me around recess. This one girl next to me called me sexy all throughout class. Id get better treatment from teachers and any female really.
Now Ive been an incel and I dont know why fate was so fucked up to me and gave me a taste of that just to be rugpulled later. I wish Id never got to see firsthand how unfair this lookism shit is.
If Id been ugly the whole time I probably wouldnt have even noticed. But this fall, I can see why old celebrities are so desperate to reclaim that.
Its not even women I want at this point, a gf wouldnt help me. Its that flattery and egoboost and the power I had being an attractive individual that I really want. The special treatment I got, being the center of attention to females. Its more intoxicating than sex or whatever, its like being a celebrity. It makes you feel important, valued, like you mean something.
Without it, you're just there by yourself, invisible, unaffirmed, unvalued. It doesnt matter how good your personality is, its only valued if youre attractive.
Anyways fml, I wish i could lobotomize these memories
2 posts omitted.>>646436I don't know what it was exactly that was the downfall, but it was likely that my nose got bigger and my skin got darker whereas before I was pale.
>>646443lmao r u fr. cmon bro I was hot for 2 yrs and didn't even do anything with it and been an incel since
>>646455it won't help a fucked up face
>>646458in what way, it was affirmed by the complete 180 in treatment from women so its not just idealism
>>646461yeah, the validation and just feeling like you belong in society and the attention you get.
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