>>701708When I was a child, I had some imaginary form of God telling me stuff like lust was bad and hollow, so one should be the devoted white knight of the only one who can enthrall thy heart.
Thus I kinda barely interacted with females and most of my interactions felt hollow, though I was still astonished by the concept of love I saw in books, other fiction etc.
Maybe that conditioning had an impact that I am sexually passive , maybe not.