>>696433i have done two EMDR sessions before and both made me cry. i was too ashamed to participate in it again and told her i didn’t want to continue with the treatment.
unfortunately, it feels fake and gay to sit and watch my therapist move her index finger around fast style while we get into the details of how i’ve been traumatized and abused over my life.
it feels absurd to have someone asking such intensely personal questions while making gestures such as that.
<even in my most private moments such as those spent secluded in my room or in therapy i feel the eyes of an invisible audience glaring at me. waiting for the slightest slip up, scoffing and laughing