I am in a Nationalist Organization, but I am so tired of it. Our Previous Local Branch Leader has left temporarly and now has family affairs, so we are stuck with a Reactionary Capitalist Petit Bourzoa, who is nothing like a proper Third Positionist ought to be. He doesn't care about the Organizations Ideology or Ideals, isn't up to date with what the rest of the Branches are Doing, Is a complete Hedonist and Gangsterist, He is lazy and passes responsibillity to others, including me, he takes bad decisions and even took a lighter from me. I don't even know he got this position. I am the most active in my branch and have even done theory lectures (which the leadership now wants to take it away because "nobody is going to read the books"), and have been thrice as much time as him in it. We got a new temporary branch leader, who I have better relations with and he is far better, but because of Personal Affairs he didn't have time, so this Degen took over. The only reason He got it I suspect, whilst I have been sidelined by the Organization leadership again and again, is because I am an Autist with no Great Facial Hair, with a quite annoying voice, a thin posture, are too theoretical (even though I am the one suggesting most actions, which then get sidelined by leadership) and come from a Leftist Family. Not to mention, I have no chance with the organization's Women. I feel so sad, seeing my Local University Branch of Leftists (with simillar views to that of my parents) organizing, making speeches, doing activism and syndical work, probably reading theory and also getting into fights with ANTIFA and Tankie types (i.e. the stuff I want to do, under my nationalist syndicalist and communtarian worldview). They all seem very friendly, instead of the 90IQ normalfags I am stuck with. Plus, the Girls are very Friendly and Nice and Pretty, and I could probably get one as my girlfriend. And I would probably be one of the most masculine members of my local branch, instead of being viewed as a weird alien creature which everyone laughs at behind the scenes. They would probably be compassionate about me being an Autist, instead of making fun of me for being Weird. And my activism would probably be rewarded, instead of being seen as me being a follower. My Parents would also be proud of me, instead of thinking I am an idiotic fascist loser. I could also publically critisize all the Cuckservatives, Ancoms, and MLs that plague my university. I can def Chameleon my way over t
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